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yayy!
but about the journal entry...
idk if so many ppl care about me that much
alot of ppl dont like me right now
i dont even know why
and no matter what i am always gonna feellike a slut wen these guys do this
nothings gonna stop it sad
and none of my friends are sluts
who do u think is a slut?
and the biggest problem is...
im not just emo sometimes
im getting really sad l8ly
idk wats going on
my moms all pissed off l8ly
my dads not as happy as he used 2 b
all my guy friends r acting wierd around me
and i keep thinking negative about all of this kinda stuff
whats gonna happen when i become an aunt?
i wanna b there 4 my sis [my friends sister]
but how can i b?
wen its born ill b in school, and wat can i really do 2 help?
and wat can i do 2 make my friends stop acting wierd?
i dont like it
i hate it
its getting really annoying.
i dont know what to do anymore, stell.

You come to me. That's what you do. Caity, I want you to know that I'll always be here for you. I am your sister. (Well, not blood-related, but who gives a s**t about that?) I'm having a lot of the same sad feelings.

Who doesn't like you right now?
Please tell me.
I can name a few sluts, but I really don't want to, cause you're gonna get mad at me.
I feel emo right now, too. All of my friends are acting different, mean, stuck-up, like they're too good for me. It's really starting to get to me. It's like I have no one to turn to.
You don't have to be worried about your mom's problems. She's probably just got a lot happening right now and lots of tension and needs to chill for a little while. Same with your dad.
Screw those guys friends of yours. They're probably just acting weird because they like you. (Btw, sorry to sound like your mom and everyone else. lol)
I know how you feel about the whole baby thing. My cousin just had a baby and my other cousin id due in a month. I'll still be in school. I'm not saying you shouldn't help, but I am saying that you shouldn't be worrying about this so much. You'll still be able to help and do your part.
What you can do to make your friends stop acting weird is to ignore them. They're going to start missing you and want you back. If they don't they don't deserve you.
I also think I know part of the reason they're acting weird around you.
Once again, I'm not naming, but some of your friends think that you're stuck-up. I've heard them say this.
Just remember to treat all your friends with respect. Only then will they accept you.
And as long as you treat me like a true friend, I'll always be here, Caity.

P.S. Who's sis is having the baby?

~Stella

i cant tel u whos sis is having a baby.
she didnt want me 2 tel any1 who it was.
ok u dont have 2 tel me who u think is a slut
who thinks im stuck up?
i need to know
idk alot of ppl r acting wierd like marisa and some1 else i forget
i cant just ignore them it just doesnt work like that anymore
i ignore them they think im stuck up or they just keep acting wierd or ignoring me.
no they dont like me
trust me' on that 1
and plus i cant imagine ignoring any of my guy friends
i cant live without em!

Caity, all I can say is act like yourself. And I know it's gonna hurt really bad, but don't be afraid of losing some friends. That's happened to me plenty of times. And I can't tell you who thinks you're stuck-up. Just like you can't tell me who's sis is having the baby. And Marisa was one of the sluts I was pertaining to. She seems to find a little too much joy in giving herself away to guys and such. And she doesn't even get mad when guys make nasty comments. She likes it. Either way, I'm not so sure if she's a true friend, and if she's acting weird and doesn't want to be around you anymore, don't be afraid of losing her. You deserve so much better. After all, I've known her since first grade, and believe me, she wasn't the nicest of children. So anyways, remember to be your own person. Not anyone else's. Because then you'll be a fake and lose more friends. Try to think of ways that you can get it through people's minds that you're not stuck-up. And just act normal around your guys friends. If they still act weird, ask them what their problem is, kay?

~Stella

well, lemme just vent and say: I AM SO EFFIN MAD AT PATRICK RIGHT NOW I NEVER WANNA TLK 2 HIM AGAIN UNLESS HE STARTS ACTING NORMAL AND NOT SO CONCEITED ANYMORE ARRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

awesomeness im going too 4th session

Well congratulations on that, Caity, because I just found out that I'm going to be at a camp on the other side of the state for 10 days with no one that I know. God I am so ticked off right now. Katie P. is mad at me for no reason, and YOU JUST DON'T SEEM TO CARE.

i dont kare? i DONT CARE? U DIDNT TEL ME THAT SHE WAS PISD, SO HOW CAN I CARE IF I DIDNT KNOW? AND IM SORRY THAT I HAVE TO GO THE FOURTH SESSION BECAUSE MY MOM AND I ARE AFRAID THAT A HIGH SCHOOL GUY IS GOING TO ******** RAPE ME. IM SORRY THAT OLDER GUYS ARE BEING ASSHOLES TO ME. IM SORRY THAT MY LIFE ISNT PERFECT FOR YOU NATALIE. ITS NOT PERFECT FOR ME EITHER. I HAVE SERIOUSLY CONSIDERED CUTTING BUT I HAVE ENOUGH SENSE TO REALIZE THAT ITS NOT GONNA HELP. AND I AM HAPPY THAT I ATLEAST GOT INTO CAMP BECAUSE I HAD TO B ON A WAITING LIST BECAUSE I CARED ENOUGH TO WAIT FOR YOU. SO DONT TEL ME THAT I DONT CARE. YOU DONT EVEN KNOW.