This guy I know, I mean I've known him for maybe, 3 months, but I hardly ever talk to him and I don't even know his name! I mean I've talked to him maybe twice in these past 3 months, and he says "You're a terrible person, you don't deserve to be living!" I just stood there shocked as he walked off. When I finally looked around, everyone was watching me. I got embarressed and ran out of the store. I was beat red! redface I got so mad at him, but then I started to ask myself..."Am I really a terrible person?" I keep asking myself and I keep getting all these different visions in my head. What is this saying to me? Am I supposed to know? Am I really a terrible person at heart? Why do I doubt myself? For some reason I keep repeating what he said to me in my head and I come up with all these answers and visions and blurry pictures, What does it all mean? Is what he says true? sad Maybe I am terrible, I mean it makes sense because I always seem to lose a friend and make them angry or upset, I mean I've lost alot of friends and I haven't gained many. I am starting to think he is right. But what I don't know is what my friends think of me...I mean if he thinks that of me...What do my friends think? I'm worried...Am I supposed to be alone? cry I don't want that! I want to have dear friends and a loving life. I want to live with no regrets!!! But this guy is really tearing at my heart.
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 iCandii-Chan · Sun Dec 28, 2008 @ 02:22am · 1 Comments |
