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AAAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!
I freaking HATE it when I say something as a joke, and people take me seriously about it and give me a hard time.
It was CLEARLY not meant to be taken seriously. All I said was, "Based on our notes we took in AP English today, Girl X is Christ-like. Canonz! ;D" LIKE. And with purposeful misspelling that I use to indicate I'm NOT 100% serious. And the freaking "Vegetable Monster" with a dumb look on his face for emphasis. And based on our notes, which I SAID CLEARLY I forgot most of. I supported my points exactly. Our teacher said only one of these would be enough for a "Christ-like" character. I did not say this girl was god. I did not say she was god-like in all seriousness. I meant to offend nobody. And this made up the MINORITY of my post. MOST of what I was talking about had nothing to do with this. It was labeled "side note" and in a post where I responded to what other people said, and gave my thoughts on her latest appearance. H311, this wasn't even most of my side note. My SIDE NOTE included stuff saying that I thought it was strange she would fit so much, basically BECAUSE I never thought of her that way.
There is only ONE person in that stupid place who took what I said the way I meant it, out of like 5 people who mentioned it. R-kun, I love you for it and am EXTREMELY grateful. At the same time, R-kun should NOT have been the only one. Girls have better language perception and stuff, and R-kun was the only boy who commented. Plus, R-kun has only known me for a little short of two months, and he's in college, so in theory his mind should not be working very well at like midnight and it should be on other things.
Mi-chan said it was a cool COMPARISON and nothing else, which is also fine. S-chan said she didn't believe it but it was cool and she supported me very slightly, which is semi-fine, since I wasn't TRYING to argue a point. But I'm not angry at her. No...the ones I'm most angry at are GB-san and SE-san and me. Me for getting sooo angry about something so little and stupid.
GB-san for writing a huge long f***ing RANT about what I said as a joke, in opposition. Taking it at face value, and as me saying the girl WAS, not she was LIKE. It makes me angry that I can refute a lot of what she says with my stupid religious school learning from back in the day too:
-Three was listed in our notes and in a Catholic newspaper as important. I bet it shows up more than you think. confused
-The crucifixion emphasized ALL four points, not just hands.
-Girl X can heal just as capably as Girl Y, who you brought up in your rant.
-Girl Y's healing "defying God" has abso-f***ing-lutely NOTHING to do with it. A Christ-like character would not try and defy God to begin with.
-If Girl X is a Christ-like character, then I am not saying that Boy X must therefore be Satan-like; even if the author has referred to him that way before. I would NEVER do anything to try and make an offensive suggestion about that boy to begin with, as he is someone I like; heck, more than the girl. Just because the girl fought him once doesn't make him her enemy, either. She's quite kind to him usually; it's just that in this instance he endangered someone she worried about. She doesn't NEED to have both parts for this comparison of extended allusion to work. Not at all, so it implies nothing about her father or that boy. If you want to get real technical up in here about her being that, then there are about a billion others that need to be plugged into these character slots from the Bible, like the Holy Spirit. confused (THREE, may I note)
-I fail to see how her equation works. Where did she get this "8" from to begin with? My "3" is actually on the girl. The five she ended up with was on the boy. So where did that freaking EIGHT come from? The only eight in this story has nothing to do with the other two except by belonging to the same organization.
She actually manages to make me angry a lot of the time this way, although generally not this badly. She's younger, and she apologizes sometimes for being immature, but still...ADAVH*@Y$RNDH. Actually prevented me from joining a DIFFERENT club for the reason that I knew she was there. For that I'm sorry to the character. But I really can't stand the way she acts like such a BRAT sometimes. It totally sucks because she's pretty nice when she's not being a brat, and usually has really good things to say. I want to reply to her so badly, but I won't because I don't want to argue with her. I wish she'd just keep such strong opinions to herself. confused I made mine as a passing observation, without need for response; she made hers as an attack on my opinion, which nobody really likes.
If it weren't for R-kun, whom I want to hug and not let go for supporting me all the time, I'd LEAVE. Just unofficially QUIT by not ever being active there again. I don't get along with most of the fans of that person at all, I notice. And in my angry fuming, I noticed--hey, I don't even like this girl THAT MUCH that I should have joined in the first place. I'm not a major fan, just a minor one. I think this was one of those, "It seemed like a good idea at the time." things. I don't know what I'd do if she died. Probably about as much as I did for a colleague of hers, which is a basic, "Oh well."
As a result, I'm fuming. Screaming at someone/something else or being left alone to fume are the only ways to undo my anger. Even if you apologize while I'm angry, I'll still be angry at you. For the half hour or so it lasts without further provocation, my anger is pretty passionate. I also deleted a huge chunk of journal explaining this situation in detail somewhere else, because I don't even have the energy to deal with more of it if it comes up by people reading that entry.
AJAHFJHAFJAHFJAH. I hate religion.
I hate censorship.
I hate censorship and religion.
Especially on the internets. Where I should be free pretty much. Especially when I was careful with my wording.
See?
This is why I'm atheist. This is EXACTLY WHY I'm atheist. Because I find that in general, no offense to anyone...that religious people are stupid about quite a lot of stuff, especially pertaining to religion. Like I'm not allowed to name religious holidays in school. That's stupid.
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