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Dear former(?) friend of mine,
2 years ago, i told you he was controlling. I told you he didnt deserve you. He wanted you all to himself, he got jealous and angry very easily. I thought, but didnt share outloud, that he was going to physically injure you, and he wasnt the guy you were going to marry.
i told you not to go. I cried when i thought of you, because i cared.

Last month you told me you broke up with him. You said he was controlling. You said he took your things and yelled insults at you. You said he hurt you, tried to strangle you. I said I was glad that you got away from him, and moved out. You told me about your new boyfriend, i begged you to stay here. I begged you to leave him, i begged you to come live with me. I told you things would be so much better here.

A few days ago, you told me that you were back with him. The first one. You said you were mad at your friends because they had lied and kept you from keeping in touch with him. I told you they were being good friends, doing so. I told you it was a bad idea. I thought that the reason they hadnt told you was probably because they knew you'd try to go back to him, and they wanted to keep you safe.

I tell you these things, and you don't listen. If I really told you what I wanted you tell you, I would lose you. You are the kind of person that gets rid of anyone who genuinely cares about you. Anyone who tells you what you don't want to hear, even if it is the truth.
I can't deal with my life, AND yours. So, next time i talk to you, It will probably be the last time. Because I'm going to say things you wont want to hear. But you need to hear them. And so, I'm going to say them.
I always lose friends for dumb reasons, but if I lose you, it's not my fault. And I don't enjoy being the person who you talk to only when your life went bad because you DIDNT listen to me.

Okay, done venting. thanks for being my friend, when I still had the REAL you.
I have missed you, and i will always miss you </3
Love, Twin