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Okay for the first time in a long time I've decided to force myself to write something. It probably won't be anything interesting considering how uneventful my life is 85% of the time but whatever it's all good. This month has been rather interesting though. I'm alone, in possession of a rather large sum of money, finishing up my college set up dealing and recovering some things I thought I'd lost. I think it's quite possibly the most active august I've had in a while.

So about this being left alone thing. Parental unit alpha-omega is out of town for about another week and a half. She's currently in my home town of DC helping my aunt prep' for the big move to live with us. I haven't done much of the same things a stupid teenager should do so far You know, like have girls over or throw a wild house party or something. I might later this week depending upon how my jew performs. The large sum of money is due to my aunt sending me about 500$ worth of in case money. I have everything locked down like fort knoxx here so a little splurging won't be too big of a deal.

The college thing hardly interests me so I won't talk about that. I"m still pissy about my interview getting botched.

Recovering the things I'd thought I'd lost, first of all let me just say that teenage relationships are screwy as all get out, but I love them. Or mine at least, I've learned that one can't take them too seriously though. This whole falling in love head first deal is not acceptable, for me at least. My reality checks normally involve a higher power altering time space screwing up schedules and issuing a sudden concrete reality check that involves a measure of gravity. Not being in absolute control of your life sucks and make a certain measure of rationality necessary. I'm also glad that I managed to not get completely emotionally entrenched like I did in my last relationship when life decided to drop that circumstance bomb that groove became a coffin.Woot for awkwardness and not being able to be around people for fear of hurting them out of a selfish desire for their time and attention.
Now don't get me wrong it's not that I'm a completely intellectual entity as far as this time around. Not even close, I care allot I do it's just I'm drawing the line between caring for and acknowledging the fact that life sucks some time and "OMGLOVEMEBEMINE4EVAR!!!!!!!1". It's kind of hard for me to show affection though I"m not exactly sure how, or when. It could be the fact that I think too much or the fact that for the most part I really dislike people. but hopefully I'll be able to improve on that.

Anyway I'm rambling. I'll leave it at possibly getting back with Alena ft and huzzah for keeping it close but casual.
Oh how I have missed her.