You ever just feel so alone? Like everyone is moving on without you? I do. All of my friends just seem to be living in their own little inside joke, and when I come, I just screw everything up. Man, even friends that I introduce get along better without me. I mean, I just introduced my best friend to my other friends at school, and now they are out shopping and walking around together, while I'm at home sick. It's not like I can go up to them and tell them to stop hanging out. It just, makes me wanna cry sometimes. Everyone is off talking and having fun, and there I am, the pathetic girl on the side, watching. I'm the girl people only talk to because everyone else is gone.
I'm that way with everything. I haven't even had a boyfriend before. Every guy I ask out, has to come up with some excuse, "I'm a transfer student, can't have a girlfriend." "I already have a girlfriend, but you don't know her, she goes to another school far away." I'm the girl guys practice firting with, the real girl they want is the one next to me.
I just hate feeling so lonely. I mean, If I died tomorrow, how many people that were my real friends would be there?
 hydrogirl · Thu Dec 16, 2004 @ 10:20pm · 1 Comments |
