Is This How Im Supposed To Be?
Am I Supposed To Be Like This? Am I Supposed To Be The One That Causes Pain? Am I Supposed To Be The One Who Brings Heartbreak To Most People I Meet? No! No I'm Not Supposed To Be Like That, And I Will Not Let Anyone Say That. It Would Be A Lie If You Heard It Now, But In The Past Maybe It Would Be True. Like When I Broke The Heart Of The One Girl Who Made My Life Whole, The Person Who Gave Me All That I Ever Needed. I've Come A Long Way Since Then, The Private Therapy, The Anger Managment. It's All Come In Handy In Many Situations Since That Day. After I Lost Her I Thought My Life Would Fall To Pieces Right Before My Eyes, But I Didnt Let It Happen. I Had To Be There For Myself To Pick Up The Pieces When I Fell Apart. I Rebuilt Myself Each Time To Form A New Me, No One Would Believe That I Came So Far. Just The Other Day When I Was Walking Home, I Was Jumped By A Gang Of Thugs I Knew From Around Town. I Got My Butt Kicked Across The Pavement, And I Was Robbed. If I Had Not Controlled My Anger Against Them I Would Have Surely Killed Each One Of Them. But Instead I Held Back And Was Put To The Pavement, Beat Till I Was Bloody, And Robbed. I Didnt Want To Be Like Those Thugs And Probably Do Something So Horrible That I'd Be Locked Up Longer Then They Would For Robbing Me. I Know Right Now Whoever Is Reading This, Your Thinking I Should Have At Least Stood Up And Tried To Defend Myself, But I Didnt, So You Think Im Stupid. Not True, I Did This To Keep Myself Out Of Prison For Killing 3 Guys. I Dont Really Care I Was Robbed, All They Got Was Some Petty Cash. All I Care Is That Im Still Alive, Now If They Pulled Out A Knife Or A Gun I'd Stand Up For Myself. A Knife Is A Close Range Weapon Unless Thrown, But Not As Strong Then. I Could Easily Used My Legs To Fight Them Before They Could Of Got Me With The Knife. And For A Gun, 5/10 Chance I Would Die From A Gunshot Wound. I Could Have Easily Ran Away And As They Would Follow, It Would Be Seen By More People And The Thugs Would Probably Wanna Just Leave With What They Got. So Now If You Think I Should Be Different, Then Tell Me, Leave Me A Comment.
-Amon
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