I am a troubled, disturbed person. Because of that, I find I must write down what I think of my friends here before something nasty happens. I'm just going through whichever of you pops into my head first. This is hard.
Maya - You've supported me through the crises and tough times. I can't thank you enough for being one of my best friends. You're an amazingly smart girl whose practical thinking is undermined by her own low self confidence. As you've said to me so many times, "You can do it!" I believe no amount of praise can equal the hard work that you put into everything you're passionate about. You will definitely find happiness in life if you keep doing what you do. Hugs and kisses. There's not much I can keep saying that wouldn't be repetitive. I'm glad I can talk to you about so much and that you're always there. That means a lot.
Baylu - Sigh... I hate that we've been fighting recently. I really do. It's difficult to bring myself to feel antipathy towards you since you always put a smile on people's faces when they need it most and I'm no different. When you were active, everyday was sunshine. Things are pretty good now, but I miss your sunshine. It's like we're living under artificial light until you return. That's the truth. You're like my big sister that I can look up to and convince myself that things are alright because you've been through so much more and can still show a happy face. There are so many good qualities about you and I'd hate to see that wasted at your shitty job. So I say again, things will be better. I love you, Whit. I care so much about you that I want you to be happy. I always wish I could do more for you.
Zu - ... You are the toughest person for me to talk about. If Whit and Maya are like my sisters, you're definitely that distant brother I wish I could be closer to. But I've accepted that I creep you out and should keep that distance. Still, I still have that very soft spot in my heart for you. It's like there are two people inside me, one that logically wants to forget you and the other that constantly thinks about you. Whether you intended to or not, you've made the biggest difference in my life, both good and bad. When you speak, the mountains move and its no different inside of me. There are a few explanations I've come up with as to why I'm so attached to you, but there's nothing definite. Unfortunately, my feelings are not likely to change. I've been trying so hard to change them for the past few months, of which I've had to deal with so much. I'm crazy, that's why.
I've never met anyone quite like you, so compassionate, intelligent, and influential.You always know what to say to make people feel better. Or worse. Or is that just me? Anyway, I see how much you've changed since the laptop incident and it disturbs me. Why? I keep asking myself that. Why do things have to change? But they do and we can't stop them from doing that. Sigh. I can never tell what you're thinking and that's both so attractive and confusing. Do you like me? Do you hate me? Both? Neither? Are you misleading me? I have no clue. You're so mysterious. A lot of people would benefit from knowing you so maybe it wouldn't hurt that much to open up a little more? We need you to be something other than just a captain that pops in occasionally! At least I do. Can't speak for everyone. You know what? I'll stop talking. There's too much to be said anyway.
Katz - You're a wonderful person and know exactly when to comfort and when to joke. I love that I don't try to figure you out and get to just enjoy who you are. I wish I could get to know you better because lately all we talk about is guild stuff, which although comforting in its own right, doesn't bring two people as close together as they'd like. You don't worry about a business partner's health, after all. Let's keep RPing together and chatting occasionally, ne? I'd like that very much.
Joey - I haven't spoken to you in so long and don't want to lose a cool friend. Although we have almost nothing in common, I still enjoy talking with you about whatever.
Lith - Heh. All I can say is that you need to get organized, man. You have so many creative ideas and you just let your life take over. Priorities!
Kira - I like talking to you, but it's hard to find that spark of true friendship sometimes. I'll keep working on finding that, though. You're always on so it shouldn't be too hard. Girl, you have so much potential as a writer and yet you don't believe in yourself. I'll blame it on those jerks you hang about. Don't ever believe them when they belittle you because I'm better than they are and I say you're a great friend and person! You only have a little longer until you're out of your house and town forever. I hope your relationship goes well. It sounds like you two really complement each other.
Jordan - Get your life together! Pick your friends wisely. You don't have to do everything they do just to fit in because you're better than they are. Stay out of trouble because you have a lot of people here who really care about you. We may joke about your criminal record, but in the end, we're worried. That said, I always enjoy talking to you because, well, you talk back and say interesting things. Hope to have more conversations with you.
Scott - You're a decent friend, but tough to talk to. I keep getting the feeling that I'm boring you every time we talk. However, you've proven yourself to be a very cool person indeed. You're also a really good listener and sometimes that's better than being a talker.
Sorri and Serena - I don't know you two that well. Is that bad? Yeah. I like having you two around, though. You're a familiar presence and I know things are looking up when I see you two RP and post in the chatterbox. Thanks for sticking with Shima and I hope to get to know you better.
Semby - sad Where are you? Did I scare you away? Of course not, but there's always that fear. I miss our late night (had to mention it. ^^) conversations a lot. I'm totally comfortable around you and it's so great to be able to be myself without any worries about you judging me. I don't want you to slip away, but I won't do anything to stop it if that's what you want. Well, everything I can say about you has been said. You know what I think about you already.
Kouri - Kouri, Kouri, Kouri... If only you weren't from China and were always sleeping when I'm awake! Oh, well. I like the rare times when we do get to talk because you're such a cheerful person and totally easy to chat with. Sometimes, I lose what you're saying because you're so well read (at least in manga ^^; ). Oh, well.
Zasadel - Yay! I looove that you're so dedicated to Shima already and willing to put the extra hours and hours and hours into fixing up the Kaguya clan. We're sweating blood and tears over that thing, but it's also been fun working with you. You're valuable in that you aren't a complete pushover, but that you're also willing to compromise. It's wonderful.
Karite - I'm afraid I don't know you too well either, but you're so much fun to RP with and a good crew member. I love Tategami Karite! And it's so cool that you work with the firefighters. Right?
Eifer - I can say that I'm messed up until I see your name. It reminds me that people have more problems than I do and that I should stop complaining. Usually works for about half a second. It seems you're completely different from day to day. Often tired, sometimes angry, sometimes passionate about Dhan, sometimes a joker. Always creative, though. That's good.
Everyone else - You're cool.
Keep in mind that I cycle through moods faster than a girl changes clothes so what I think one minute will change the next.
Hm, I thought that spilling dark secrets would make me feel better, but it hasn't. Guess I have to tackle the problem directly. Zu, get ready for a glomp... Heh, just kidding. ^^
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