Mood: Mixed.
Currently Listening To: "Happy" - Saving Jane
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Gawd. Today sucked. I had to wake up at 8:00am to hear Dad b***h all morning, then go to get my driver's permit only to wait at the OMV for 45 minutes for NOTHING because dad bought a copy of my birth certificate, and not the original.
Then, I hear more of dad b***h and complain, then I hear mom b***h and complain. And since it was Dain's birthday, I had to put up with his "I'm-God" attitude ALL DAMN DAY. Then I talked to Livy and Tey on the phone, which was entertaining for a while. Then I went to my Grandma's house to eat shrimp for supper. There, I had to talk to my little cousin about video games and Naruto, and treat my other cousin for a wasp sting (and he's allergic). Then mom and dad said we were gonna stop by Nanny Faye's for a little while. Well, a 'little while' turns out to be from 6pm to 12am. RIGHT. ANd they were all drinking, so I had to stay with my ANNOYING AS EVER brother. I watched 'What A Girl Wants' twice.
It was a really bad day, and I guess I was just in a bad mood. The second time I watched the movie, I cried, and got into an angry fit about how movies are always a happy ending. The ones I watch anyways. It's like EVERYTHING turns out okay. I wish I was a movie character. -o- The real world can SUCK.
I started to just feel lonely. Dad almost caught me crying and he was like, "Tired yet?" I said no, but inside I was like, "No s**t. I have a baseball game at 10:15 tomorrow morning."
After the movie ended, I just cried. I was curled up into a ball on the sofa and just cried to myself. I hadn't creid in about a week (which is a lot for me), but I got it all out. I still keep tearing up randomly. I guess it's just because I felt a little lonely and angry that I have no life...thought that's MY fault, really. School needs to start. I hate it, but at least I see my friends everyday to keep me happy. I'm so depressed sometimes.
But yeah. I cry a lot. I pity myself. I'm so weird, It's like I'm so happy and I love life, and the next day I wanna crawl into a hole and die. x-x I think I have like a mini form of bipolar. That or hyperactive hormones.
Right now, I just don't really care. It's past 1:30am, and I have to play ball tomorrow. I don't care. And I just started crying. I don't know WHY. Dammit.
>< Being me can suck sometimes, you know. Hopefully I'll be happy again tomorrow.
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Currently Listening To: "Happy" - Saving Jane
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Gawd. Today sucked. I had to wake up at 8:00am to hear Dad b***h all morning, then go to get my driver's permit only to wait at the OMV for 45 minutes for NOTHING because dad bought a copy of my birth certificate, and not the original.
Then, I hear more of dad b***h and complain, then I hear mom b***h and complain. And since it was Dain's birthday, I had to put up with his "I'm-God" attitude ALL DAMN DAY. Then I talked to Livy and Tey on the phone, which was entertaining for a while. Then I went to my Grandma's house to eat shrimp for supper. There, I had to talk to my little cousin about video games and Naruto, and treat my other cousin for a wasp sting (and he's allergic). Then mom and dad said we were gonna stop by Nanny Faye's for a little while. Well, a 'little while' turns out to be from 6pm to 12am. RIGHT. ANd they were all drinking, so I had to stay with my ANNOYING AS EVER brother. I watched 'What A Girl Wants' twice.
It was a really bad day, and I guess I was just in a bad mood. The second time I watched the movie, I cried, and got into an angry fit about how movies are always a happy ending. The ones I watch anyways. It's like EVERYTHING turns out okay. I wish I was a movie character. -o- The real world can SUCK.
I started to just feel lonely. Dad almost caught me crying and he was like, "Tired yet?" I said no, but inside I was like, "No s**t. I have a baseball game at 10:15 tomorrow morning."
After the movie ended, I just cried. I was curled up into a ball on the sofa and just cried to myself. I hadn't creid in about a week (which is a lot for me), but I got it all out. I still keep tearing up randomly. I guess it's just because I felt a little lonely and angry that I have no life...thought that's MY fault, really. School needs to start. I hate it, but at least I see my friends everyday to keep me happy. I'm so depressed sometimes.
But yeah. I cry a lot. I pity myself. I'm so weird, It's like I'm so happy and I love life, and the next day I wanna crawl into a hole and die. x-x I think I have like a mini form of bipolar. That or hyperactive hormones.
Right now, I just don't really care. It's past 1:30am, and I have to play ball tomorrow. I don't care. And I just started crying. I don't know WHY. Dammit.
>< Being me can suck sometimes, you know. Hopefully I'll be happy again tomorrow.
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