Today I got a pm, nothing special, but it made me think about something. About friends.
In my reallife I never cared so much about friends. Until a few months ago, my best friend of school moved to another village. It's pretty far away, I don't see or speak to her a lot. I do miss her, but I also went to another school, I made new friends. Never knew it was that easy. One is gone and then you just get another. A few months ago I thought I could never miss my best friend of school, and now I don't really care that much. The road of life just goes on and on and on.
I was always told friends were something special. I thought I understand, but now I know I do not. On gaia I see people with a friendlist of 100 people or more. Do you even speak to them, I think not.
Another example. I have/had a very good friend, she lived next to my grandmother. I only saw her when I was there. When my grandfather died I knew my grandmother had to move some day. The house was pretty big for one woman. And years I was afraid I would never see my very good friend again if my grandmother moved. But now my grandmother moved, but I'm not even good friends with the girl anymore. I rarely speak to her, I rarely see her. I don't even care that much.
But these friendships weren't such a good friendship. Otherwise it didn't matter that we didn't saw eithother a lot. Or am I wrong. 'cause when I see some friendlists on gaia I just know you don't talk to everyone a lot. When I hear some people call me their friend I think what are you talking about. I don't wanna have friends who talk bad about me everytime they have the change.
Ofcourse I also have some good friends, who don't talk bad about me whenever they have the chance. If you're not my friend, it doesn't means that I hate you. Because if you think that's how it works than we think different about the word friend.
For me friend are people
who are there for you, whenever you need them.
who dares to tell you the truth, even if it hurts
and with this I could go on and on.
I guess that there aren't a lot of people who've read this all. But I could clear my mind. One of the things why I use my journal. And I don't care that everybody can read it. I'm just happy that I'm enable to speak my mind.
Don't say this is crap, 'cause I don't care what you say, I don't need you anyway
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