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Lost and lonely deep inside
I have no where to run nor hide
Shrouded with fear and tears of mine
I shall only wait and forever cry

I cover my feelings up with cheer
and wait for u to hear
to hear the voices inside my heart
screaming, pleading and beedling for you from the very start

Smiles and laugher filled of glee
It's all just a mask to cover the real me
I am crying and bleeding to death deep inside
waiting and waiting to come out from hide
Again and again I fell lonely and lost to find
to Find the little me covered with tears and blood of mine

Filled with joy and smiles everyday
I'll never let these special moments fade away
I'll set my heart free from these chain to fly far far away
But I'll always be here to wait and stay

I lay here inprisoned and never letting go
these feelings I have for u they were only true of love and hope
It made my heart happy yet sad to know
that u left me here for someone else u love so
as soon as i saw your hand with his It broke my heart as I saw u kiss

I wish that was me still by your side
that you'll take me forever and never make me cry
I wish i never met u ever before
so that i would never had to love with so much sore

I shed with tears every night and day
morning and morning to let me be with u with just one more day
I guess we were never ment to be with each other from the start
But i just want u to know that I'll always love u no matter what

I tried to move on from the past of mine
and i finally met another guy
he said he loved me on the very first day
he made moves on me till i cried and prayed
I praied with all my heart and soul
to let someone hear my voice

I pleaded and pleaded to let me go
He love me he ,said with lies that teared of hope
that our love was never really true
that i never really did love you

he held me down with all his might
he made me cry with every touch
breaking me more with a broken heart

He put his hands onto my face and licked away
He took me and pushed away
he trusted and shoved and never letting go
I cried and moaned in tears so say stop and let me go
My words were never heard as i kept on saying no

As i layed there and cried away
you only slapped me and held me to stay
You hit me and broke my heart

You left me in the room to lay alone
to never come back another day
I watched u leave and close to door
leaving me to sob in sheded tears

my eyes driped of rain
my heart was broken and left in vein
my vocie was quiet and never said a word
everything turned blank and my head started to swing

blood flew down and dripped away
as i held this blade to my body and slashed and slashed
you stabbed my heart with the anger of hate
Now i shall take this balde and never live again
I shall leave this world alone to never see the day of light again
I will fly and fly away to be free once more to never say
that i love you with all my heart and soul

slicing me away
ripped me
shattered me
shreaded me
and killed me away
and now I shall only say
good bye as I lay down to bleed and die away