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I can not explain this feeling that I have
Its needles, tens and hundreds of needles stabbing me constantly
but its not at my heart but at my eyes...
I feel suddenly weak and fragile, but its not my entire being that aches
its my shoulders and my smooth legs
I can't breath anymore, and this time I know it is my lungs that have given away
Why am I suffering?

My eyes, they don't allow me to cry and show this suffering
My mouth, will not let a solid word slip, to beg fo forgiveness and help
My oh so once powerful shoulders and legs wouldn't lift my body to run to your
distant image...
What is wrong with me-

I can not look you in the eye anymore, for my vision is gone
I can no longer her your chalet vocal cords because my ears are numb: I am deaf
I can not walk well because my body just refuse to...
its like i am out of body looking down and i see your tears
Oh so many tears- and i feel the pain of each one that slithers down.

I am sorry-
I cannot say this or express it
but i am truly sorry

My eyes- do they ache from needles because i looked at you and told a lie
or do they ache from a simple diease or injury that I have received from the numerous nights i rutted and gazed on others form.

My lungs- do they ache from the lack of your scent, since i used breath to tell you with venom how much I loathed to see- when I knew it wasn't true. Or does it sche because i just need some oxygen, and some tie to myself.

My legs & shoulders- I know are not aching from physical activity between you and I, but because I was with him the other night

I swore to love you with my body and the soul attached to it
I am sorry- I am sorry for not loving you enough
To keep the promise

I am sorry- not in hopes to heal this pain, but to heal yours
and i am, and i will say one again truly sorry

That you wasted love on me.