My dad keeps trying to call me, but I refuse to answer the phone. I really do not want to talk to him. He always leaves me feeling horrible about myself. So, why would I want to submit myself to feeling like that? Well, I don't. Not in the least.
I tried emailing him back, but my attempts just turned out angry and bitter. He suggested that we get togther, just the two of us. I can tell you now that isn't going to happen. He demeans me, he demeans my love and he demeans my lifestyle. I don't want to go out to dinner just to return feeling like utter s**t.
Even though he bites his tongue on the lecturing now, he still rolls his eyes. He still shows his disbelief and dismay through his actions though not his words.
I have no desire to be put down. Thus, no desire to speak with my father.
Is this a bad thing?
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