Things keep changing for me. I'm losing a lot of people I care about. Being hurt, getting hurt, and hurting others seems so...routine. I'd really like all the drama to stop, but I can't control my own emotions...
I'm going to have to change, too, if I want to keep the few that are still with me. But it's hard. A lot of my friends are guys and add a boyfriend to the mix...you have a recipe for chaos.
And jealously is not just among the XY group. Last year in school, I discovered the meaning of jealously. Worst of all, I fell to it myself...
I'm running weary on trust, I bleed envy, the blade of anger has attached itself to my tongue, and paranoia has infected my mind. All of this shows through everything I do. How am I supposed to make friends next year if I distrust everyone?
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