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i walk down the beach...
trying to remember the past,
laying down...
together.
his arm across my shoulder..
him whispering in my ear..
comforting me.
then i flash to another story, when we first met.
shopping with friends,
that was what i was doing.
and then bumping into him.
me, waking up in the hospital..
seems that when i fell, i bumped into stairs...
his comforting face, above mine,
to his relief,
i was alive..
his face,
so close to mine..
i wish for that moment once more...
when he leaned,
and put his hand of my face,
whispering
"wanna go out? this saturday? maybe? i do need to repay you for the whole tantrum you gave me when i bumped into you"
then life was easy,
we were together.
los vegas,
san fansisco,
paris,
we loved to travel,
but one day the lights all turned off in my life,
no sparks...
the nights and days have no meaning now.
on the day,
he died.
everything was a blur to me from then
the nights grew longer,
and then days went by.
no sparks,
could ever fly.

back to the beach,
i throw sand into the air,
blaming my self for all this.
frustrated,
i calmed myslef...

i walk around the beach..
crying.
the sand between my toes,
i walk,
as my heart aches.
i walk onto the road...
stopping in the middle,
and feel pain in my chest...
and i just wait.
for.
the.
pain.
to.
all.
just.
go.
away.

..........

the last things i heard were:
loud noises,
like honks around me,
crashes around, and pain all around me,
and his voice, tearinf through all of the commotion,
all around me.