Tee hee~ whee and this isn't jsut an attempt to cheer myself up...I really am happy again. wink And nothing is putting me down, because I'm not letting it.
I feel so alive inside...its so strange. I wanna run and scream and giggle~!
Leveling Melody is progressive but boring as hell sweatdrop ...I'ma go back to stings. Only 99 to kill for a base level heart I'm trying to get Melody to 70 so the other guilds dont' make fun of me anymore .... xd I think its silly they do that, they take the game so seriously...I kinda feel sorry for them sad
I had a weird dream last night abotu animal sex gonk I don't even wanna discuss teh bizaare s**t that went on in that dream... sweatdrop that was to kinky even for me.
I'm home alone right now...lil bro is at chuch, the other bro is with mom, and my sisters are at my cousins house for the weekend. I think I'ma take my car out for a spin...sooooo boring here. I don't need to be back home till 9pm for WOE which I am dieeeeeeing to do~! heart
I'm sitting on the bridge me and Shadow used to sit on in Alde. Talking with my guild and just relaxing...its nice to be back with VX, I missed them alot. And ya know what...they missed me too. redface
I'm saving up for some devil wings, I think they rock. heart Only 4 mil too ::drools::
I dunno what to do about my sin... sweatdrop I refuse to play her for another month so Purity/Valliance of Figtare (w/e) forgets me. I think Bunny's mad I quit...I dunno though. I avoid West Pront and the theif bug culverst nowadays...nothing but bad people that way. sad
No word from Chris...I miss 'em. Lots. I hate how he takes so long to write back to me...I really am trying to be patient, but its like it doesn't matter to him he'll do it whenever he feels like it. Now, I do want like a to-heart-to-heart responce from him...but I mean, sweatdrop he can be a little faster damn it.
Oh yea! xd I broke up with Josh. It doesn't matter who broke up with who, true true...but I have closure in being the one who did it. 3nodding I mean, he didnt' care anyway. sweatdrop He wasn't talking to me, when he did it was suprratic(sp?) he wasn't trying to...ooo....maybe if I woulda just kept tanking him everything would be ok now! Curse me for not being a pushover!
I think he was doing monkey buisness! D: Like in the joyluck club xd Rose's husband wanted a divorse and she couldnt' understand why till he called her up like "Look b***h, I wanna make this as quick as possible so I can remarry a better woman!" xd Wow so there is someone better than me!? Oh noooooooooo.....how could this beeeeeeeeeeeee? xd
I'm literally falling over and dieing of laughter right now!
Like what comedians do...why let life keep you down when you can just make fun of it? xd
3nodding So Josh, thus, is over...and dead to me now. whee No longer existant and our relationship, due to its hardships, never existed either. He is a stranger~and this, here, is the last time I will ever mention him. 3nodding No more going back and saying sorry and oh how badly I love thee~! Or how strong our connection is. A connection never existed, just a web of messy lies. So here, you die, Joshua Micheal Gutierrez, may teh soul of our relationship rest in peace.
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I cussed infront of my mom and she didnt' try to hit me or give me the mean look. xd I was kinda shocked, I'm still testing my limits to what I can and cannot do. Its an intresting learning process, but I won't press myself.
I been Isaac avoiding the past few days..gues I should hit 'em back up. 3nodding I dunno, he said he "needed some me time" stare ...what about my needs damn it. gonk He's my best friend he's suppose to be here for me! ...and he's...well...not. He said he's been withdrawing from everyone since he started hsi 10hoursaday job...still, best friends dont' leave meh hanging like this.
I jsut finished watching "You Drive Me Crazy" I thought it was a shitty movie since I never saw it before, I mean...it was juts like any other teen movie but...I dunno, sometimes I really love to watch those movies ^o^ So...I dunno...::sighs dreamily:: Ok, next boyfriend has to be totally romantic and stuff. Like when the designated driver dude stood up for the girl when her boyfriend was hittin her...ToT Thats so f-ing sweet! I want a boy to do that for meeeeeee He got his a** kicked and he still fought for her! ...guys like that are hard to come by, most boys are lieing punk a** bish's.
Bish's is the new word I am using for bitches. whee Its cuter and less harsh on my ear. redface
I need some money...I have the urge to wanna shop...I wanna get my hair and nails done put on a cute outfit and strut my stuff at the mall. Not so boys will try to holla, but 'cause it makes me feel good inside. whee I know I'm not pretty, but it doesn't matter...'cause I'm beautiful inside, and thats where it counts. wink heart
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....I'm sleepy I should nap...then go driving...call up Jessy and see where teh college kids are parting tonight cool ...I haven't been to a party in ages....geez... sweatdrop I have become a very closed book this past year... gonk RO is bad! I kinda miss partying...drinkin the red colored stuff, smokin weed, dancin dirty whee ...eh, I doubt I will do it, though. I do really wanna WOE tonight, I learned alot of new stuff and sold my Bao Bao and bought some really good cards and equpits whee I'ma rock tonight. heart
I'm watchin cartoons now...Danny Phantom is on 3nodding I'm not really watching...but its on my TV whee
Gosh...that 10 page report is due in a few weeks and I haven't even read 1 of my 12 resources yet sad I don't wanna do it...I'm becoming such a procrastinator! ....damn I spelled that wrong. gonk I'ma make my bad spelling the title of the entry~! 4laugh
The bard in VX is PC....not CP. PC is power cord skill and CP is classical pluck. He needs to know CP for WOE...I hate PC people stare You can't even summon MVP's anymore why the HELL would you waste your time and energy making one? I dont' see teh use...I'd ask the bard, but he doesn't know why either sweatdrop
I want a boyfriend...::sigh:: And now I'm all fixed, I don't whine and nag and fight anymore, whee So now I'm a better girlfriend~! So now I can make a guy happy. whee Yay for Courtney~! 4laugh
...unless teh guy wants to fight or something, then we cant' go out. wink No, I'm not boyfriend hunting. My mom always told me its bad to look for love, just let it happen. My mom always looked for love andn thats how she met all those bad men who would beat her and us her current boyfriend, Larry, works at her job with her so it wasn't like she was looking for him, it just happened. whee
And thats how Isaac happened. We were just friends, he didn't even like me like that till I said I liked him more than a friend...or maybe he did...I dunno, xd regardless, the relationship we had was really good 3nodding and now we're close friends. whee Unlike looking for love, when you meet them and then break up and never speak again sad I hate love like that...
I keepthinkign about love alot. I wanan fall inlove. I dont' want immature love, though. I want serious, romantic, true love...someone who loves me just for existanting, not for what I can do for them. Like the love Waverly has for Rich in the JoyLuckClub. I know I sholdn't base my desired love qualities off a book...but everything the two of them had is everything I want. I haven't met a person who loves me like that, well... xd except Chris, but he doesn't like me like that so it doesn't count. sweatdrop I don't think he does, atleast...like he'll say he does, but he doesn't act to convincing about it. gonk
Ok..I'ma get my level on RO, nap, and whatever happens after that--happens. 3nodding
