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You don't remember me
But I remember you
The shadow of who I used to be
The person I thought I knew

Who I was and who I am
Are as different as black and white
This soul doesn't give a damn
I'm going down without a fight

Replace this pain with something real
And I bleed until I bleed no more
There are too many wounds that cannot heal
I'm going through this open door

I'm screaming so loud but you are gone
You said that happiness is real, but I beg to differ
I'll always know that you are wrong
As I press this blade to my wrist I may whisper:

Is happiness just a dream?
This pain has always been here
Why can't you hear me when I scream?
Suicide is something I will always hold dear

Now I am an angel of death
The girl with the broken smile
I wander the night till I take my last breath
I long to be who I was as a child

This blade runs down my arm
I wonder if just once I will cut too deep
If the blood will trickle down my wrist till I bleed no more
Will someone finally hear me?

Then I will at last be gone
My olive green eyes empty
For once all will be right, not wrong
My soul finally set free

My note will be short, not more than a sentence
For my life was painful, so will be the end
The magical phrase will be echoed forever
Known by all, it shall be:

Suicide is painless, it's only life that hurts
My soul is tranquil
And I bleed till I take this last breath
Now that I am gone