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And found in the last place you expect. I've had a harsh time with online relationships in the past, and I never expected things to change. In fact, the one person in the world I have ever genuinely wished dead was a girl called Erin. She lied to me, but I forgave her and trusted her a second time, she betrayed that trust, but I cared about her by then, and couldn't help but forgive her, then, she threw that in my face by refusing to let me be her friend, for my sake apparantly. She said she didn't want me hurt, but it hurt more because she told me we couldn't be friends. Being betrayed by a friend hurts: loosing one hurts more. I don't know what did it, but even her name brings me hatred now.

But then, where there are demons, there are always angels doing battle. The rocky terrain of my heart was recaptured by one such angel recently. I'm once again frightened and confused by how easy it is to fall in love when you don't suspect it. My friends question my judgement, and I found myself snapping at them as soon as they did so... Love changes a man too, it seems. But regardless of the fright and confusion, I'm a happy, happy bunny.