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It was sundown when InuYasha came back. He seemed kinda dazed as he came and sat down, a little away from the rest of us. I told myself that as soon as he got back, I'd start giving him a apiece of my mind, but.....when I saw him, I couldn't get the words out. Its like all the anger rushed out of me and was replaced with a sudden saddness I could barely control. Kagome looked over at him coldy. "so, how's Kikyo?" she said sarcasticaly. I winced at Kikyo's name. InuYasha stared at her. "Fine." he finally said. Sango looked over at me, and seeing as I was about to lose it, said "InuYasha, could you do us a favor and go get us some water?" Miroku stared at her. "But, Sango, I just went and-OW!" Sango kicked him before he could finish. InuYasha nodded. "...yeah." and he left. Sango came over to me. "hey, Bella? Are you alright? You look like you're gonna lose it." I nodded. "I think I am." I choked out. I started to cry again, but not a badly before. InuYasha came back before I could stop. He stared at me for a minute. "Why is she crying?" he asked. Suddenly I felt angry. and I mean REALLY angry. I stood up and walked up to him. "I'm crying because you're such a JERK! YOU LEFT THE FIGHT, LEFT US, LEFT KAGOME, AND ALL FOR KIKYO!!! YOU'RE SUCH AN IDIOT! AND THAT PUNCH HURT YA KNOW!" I fell to the ground. InuYasha hurridely bent down to pick me up before I hit the ground. I shoved him off of me. I could feel my Dark Aura rising. I could see it. I was afraid that I might hurt everyone if I didn't calm down. But I could barely breathe. InuYasha fliched when I shoved him. "I can't believe you DID that! How COULD you?! Do you realize how hard it is to watch Kagome, AND fight at the same time? ITS REALLY HARD INUYASHA!!! YOU'RE fine with it, because you love her.....or maybe you don't anymore, I don't even know.....but you left us to defend ourselves! Do you even realize how much trouble they'd be in if I didn't use my Aura? DO YOU EVEN KNOW!!??" InuYasha was hurt by my words. I could see it in his eyes. I liked it. I wanted to hurt him some more. But then Kagome cut in. "You know InuYasha, you weren't all that smart hurting Bella. She took it kinda hard." she whispered that last part. He looked at her strangley. "You're mad at me for hurting Bella, not for seeing Kikyo?" Kagome shook her head. She looked like she was in a much pain as I felt, which was stupid, because I shouldn't be FEELING this much pain. "I'm upset that you went to see Kikyo, but......you did, so there's nothing I can do. But I'm ALSO mad that you hurt Bella. She was just telling the truth, you know." Again, she whispered that last part. InuYasha sighed. Then he looked at me. "Bella, I'm sorry I hit you." I snorted. "Yeah. Right." he looked away from me, able to tell that I wasn't planning to accept an apology anytime soon. "Dinner." Miroku said. He sounded far away, even though he was right behind us. Everyone went over to the fire but me. Sango waved me over, but I shook my head. I wasn't hungry. I walked to the stream and sat down. This was silly, I told myself. Kagome isn't acting this childish. She's taking it better than I am, and she's the one who's hurting the most, from InuYasha and Kikyo.
Wasn't she?
I didn't let that thought progress any further. I didn't want it to.
Just then InuYasha came over and sat next to me. I could tell that he was looking at me, but there was NO WAY I was going to talk. I ruffled my wings impatiently. He tried to talk. "Bella......" "What?" I snapped, looking hard at him. He winced. Then his eyes softened. I've only seen him look like this when he was talking to Kagome. It scared me. Funny, I thought, that I was scared of InuYasha's expression, rather then the thought of Naraku killing me. "Bella, I'm sorry I hit you." I stared at him, amazed at his denseness. Couldn't he tell that I was NOT accepting an apology? I looked away. "Sure you are." I said, more to myself then him. "No! Really! I am!" His intense answer made me look at him. His eyes were determined. "Why?" I asked. "You were mad, even though all I said was the truth." InuYasha nodded once. "See, thats the thing. The reason I hit you was that what you said WAS true. I was worried about Kikyo, even though Kagome was right next to me, bleeding. And I was mad, but not really at you.....I'm sorry I took my anger out on your honsety." He looked at me, sadness in his eyes. I was sorry that I was the one who made him look like that. "I'm sorry too. I shouldn't have said it, even if it is true." He stared at me. "You don't have to be sorry." he finally said. I shook my head. "But I do. It was mean, and nasty, and horrible, and......and....." I couldn't believe it. I was starting to cry again, wasn't I? I tried to keep talking anyway. "I'm really sorry I did it. You don't have to be sorry for what you did though. I deserved it." Thats when I totally broke down. I was bawling so hard I couldn't breathe. InuYasha didn't say anything, he just let me cry for a minute. I curled up into a ball, shivering. He noticed. He inched closer. I looked at him, and could see that his face was a little red. But only a little. He hugged me. At first I tried to break away, and I know if I wasn't crying I could do it, but I was so tired I just gave up. I inched closer into his kimono, sobbing. Once again, he didn't say anything, until after my loudest sobs were over. "You didn't deserve it. I forgive you, but I'm still sorry. So you forgive me?" A new set of tears sprang to my eyes. I nodded, and broke away from him. Then I muttered "Kagome's probably waiting." InuYasha stared for a minute, then understanding that I was talking about the hug, nodded and left. I sat there for a minute more, trying to make out everything that just happened. I called to him before he'd gotten to far away. "InuYasha!" He turned around. "At least now you know whose side I'm on!" His eyes widened, but he nodded, and contiuned walking. But I stared at the stream until dark, then went over to camp and fell asleep on my blanket.


Wow, there was a lot of crying in that one. O.O Sorry about that, but it might happen from time to time. ^^


Oh yes, PLEASE LOOK AT INTO THE PAST PART 13 FOR MY OUTFIT CHANGE. SORRY I KEEP CHANGING, BUT....... sweatdrop THANK YOU!!! ^^