Mood: not happy sad depressed
Well, it seems like things are slowly falling apart for me. I started Gaia when I was 12...it was great, I was accepted into Westbrook Anime High...and made some of the greatest friends in the world...
Now I'm 14, and I just crave for that happyness and sense of belonging that I once had. I mean, I have some great friends still...but...I really don't feel like I really belong anywhere. All I ever had was Westbrook...despite the other guilds I was in...and I now that's gone from me too.
The whole guild fell apart after we went from a forum with 11,000+ pages to a real guild...it never worked as well. And now I feel abandoned like...like there's nothing there for me anymore. I mean, I always went back to the old Westbrook forum and read all the good times I had. But now, since the new forum code was placed, it all got deleted, and there are only 10 pages in the forum. So now I feel that the last piece of comfort I had was taken away, and even though It's only on a website, it really hurts a lot. I mean, Gaia is like a home to me...and so was Westbrook. So to see it fall apart right in front of you is just the worst thing I could expierience. There are only a few of the old students left...and one of them quit posting in the new guild...I was mad and I PMed him about it. This is how it went:
Kite19902004
Iia
Kite19902004
Iia
Kite19902004
Iia
Kite19902004
Iia
WTF?! gonk Now YOU'RE leaving WB. ;.; C'mon, Kite...You're leaving me and chesea all alone xp How could you?!
Kite...you're like, one of the only people that's keeping Westbrook alive, besides myself Chesea, and Kaisuo...it sucks when people like you leave us. :/ That school is hanging by a ******** thread, and you aren't helping.
oh....well in that case >>; sorry for the harsh words...o.o i thought you were quitting everything. -.-;;;
well, if YOU quit, I know I'm not staying much longer...being you've been a member of Westbrook longer than me.
...ehh...there's just nowhere else for me to go sweatdrop
...i only got there a couple days before ya iia-chan....back when you and were started out eh? x.x;;...but all of thats in the past.....even if we give up on westbrook...moi and you need to stick together x3....maybe make another school and us two be the headmasters.......eh?
the minuit i read that last quote, i just started crying...and I still am. Partly because I was sad that it's time to realize that Westbrook isn't coming back, but also that I was happy, because after all our losses, that I still have friends that I can talk to. This isn't just hitting me hard, I know that Kite and Chesea and Taka and everyone else feels the pain of losing that. and I really feel sorry for Rei, the owner, because she must feel so bad for letting it end like that. So we've lost it all, and we still stay together. It makes me feel so much better about it, because I know that even though real life or life on Gaia is rough, I have people I can talk to, and they'll stand by me though it all...and so I find that I should post this song...it's called "Sugar, We're Going Down" by Fall Out Boys....because, we are really doing down...swinging our fists
Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)
Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)
Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
[x2]
Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)
Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)
Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
[x2]
Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded god complex, c**k it and pull it
I like this song a lot. Well, I'm still talking to Kite, and I'm feeling better now after listening to that song. Now of course I'm listening to "Anytime" by Brain McKnight...i just really like the piano and the music in it. n.n You should all check it out. 3nodding I plan for "Sugar, We're Going Down" to maybe be one of Jaymie's songs. >w< it suits him.
Well, there's my depressing rant of the week ;.; Bye Bye Westbrook. It was a pleasure, and I'll never forget the memories.
...I'm crying again....dammit.
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