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I feel like i do everything wrong nowadays. Nothing is ever good enough.
Im not pretty enough or calm enough or something...I just wish I could get some slack.
But since I dont give any, how should I expect to get some relief?
I guess I dont.
I feel like theres something wrong with me...maybe there is. In fact, Im sure there is. I think maybe its that Im too clingy.
But is it so much to ask for someone to lean on?
I try to always be there. On second thought....maybe I dont do my best. No one ever does. We help each other when its convenient.
But we do have to take care of ourselves, too, right?
I dont know. Maybe its the way I always find exceptions for everything. An exception to every rule.
Whats that called? Subjectivenes?
Is that even a word?
But I guess I feel that way, Everything is subjective. Right, wrong. Happiness, sadness.
Do we have any control or are we just feathers on the wind?
Some people dont see it this way. Those ones are the people rooted in reality, like a tree is rooted to the earth.
But Im going on a tangent. This was about how annoying I find myself. And also how annoying others must see me as.
Ah, well, not much I can do, right? Just be me and hope to god that soemthing comes of it? For now, Im too lazy to do anything more.
 Hanawie · Thu Jan 03, 2008 @ 09:49pm · 0 Comments |
