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I just have to get this out, there is no keeping this in. I'm going to try and not be emo on this one, so I'll state is briefly. There is this friend of mine, I did some things I regret in the past, back when I was an immature a*****e. Turns out, most of this was a misunderstanding. Its not so much about him forgiving me, because I think he is. Its about me forgiving myself. Whenever I talk or think about him, I cannot help but think of myself as a horrible person. I'm not going into details, because I don't want this person to know who they are, so they won't give me a talking or anything. That is all. I don't feel any ******** better, but hey, at least I tried. Call me crazy, but I want this person to be a good friend real bad, but my own self pity and guilt does not let that. How pathetic is that.

~ Aegis Sama