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07.23.05
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Mood: I feel like s**t right now. -.-

Currently Listening To: Nothing


Well, I don't feel good right now, but that doesn't mean that I didn't have a good day today. ;D First, I went GARAGE SALE SHOPPING! YAAAAY! <333333333 Ok, I know that it sound cheep, but there are really good stuff. I had to wake up at 6:00 this morning. X.x And I didn't get much sleep again, but I was ready. Here's what I bought:

A Cool Yellow Winter Vest - $1.50
A Size Too Big Old Navy Yellow Pullover ;3 - $1.75
Hawaiian Punch Shirt - $0.50
Miami Dolphins Jersey (JERSEY!!!!!) - $0.50
Camo Boy Shorts. >w< - $0.25
A Rainbow "I Love Canada" coffee mug. <33 ((I know...I'm a bad American)) - $0.05
Cool Gold Dangly Bracelets - $0.10
Half Life for the PC - $1.00
Worms Armageedon for PC - $1.00
Sims Theme Park for PC- $1.00
Big Biz Tycoon for PC - $1.00

I think I did pretty good cool Anyways, we didn't go to all of them, because I had a softball ((slow pitch)) game at 10:15. I think this is so cool...okay, I'm on the team called the Tigerettes. There are 4 teams in the Youth Pitch Girls League; Tigerettes ((us)), Fantasies, Alley Cats, and Bay Area Rebels. The Bay Aream Rebels were the best team in the league, followed by the Alley Cats, then the Fantasies, and last AND least, the Tigerettes. We had only won ONE game the entire season, so I pretty much didn't have any hope for the Ending Season Tournament. It was double elimination. We lost our first game against the Alley Cats. If we lost another game, we'd be out. Well, we had to play the Fantasies. Low and behold, we WON!!! Score; 8-6. I was really happy. We were NOT last place for the tournament. Next, we had to play the Alley Cats again. The score for that game; 10-6. We had won AGAIN! OMFG!!! So, now we were guaranteed no less than second place. I was really proud of myself and the team. For the finals, we had to play the Bay Area Rebels. Since it was a double elimination tournament, we had to beat them twice in order to win, since they were undefeated, and we had lost our first match. It was SCORCHING outside. @_@ Just the sun...no breeze, no clouds. It was so hot. Luckily, they had Florida water ((special non-drinkable water that's used to cool off your skin)) and the fans that sprayed tap water in the dugouts....and I had also had 2 poweraid drinks to drink.

((my brother is throwing up right now in the bathroom...I can hear him and it's making me feel sick. @_@ I'm not in there because I know I would puke if I saw him puke.))

Continuing with the game. The 45 minute time limit had run out. It was tied 10-10. NOw, luckily for tham, the Bay Area Rebels had last bat. Well, unfortunatly, they scored another run, And the game was ended. We had second place in the tournament. I'm really proud though, because it was a REALLY close game, and we were the worst team playing against the best team out there. The season has ended, but next summer I'll join agian most likely...and I'll be moving up from Youth Pitch to U.S.S.S.A. >w< Yay! I'm so lazy, but at least I have DDR and softball <3

Ends of my rambling about sports. @w@ Now I rant about myself.

I hate to admit it, but I'm just coming to realize that for a long time, I was trying to fit it with people I don't belong with...trying to be someone I'm not. For example, I went to Hot Topic and bought all kinds of shirts there. Now, don't get me wrong; I like Hot Topic, but I just wasn't shopping for myself. I was shopping to impress other people. Well, today I realized that, and now, I'm not going to try and fit in with the goths...or the punks...or the tomboys out there. Why? Because I'm not. I'm not a goth. I'm not a punk. And I'm not a tomboy. Sure, I have traits of these things...I have traits for everything. Yes, I like to wear dark clothing like goths. Yes, I like rock music and like crazy styles like punks. Yes, I WON'T wear a dress under any circumstances, and I hate girly stuff like tomboys. I'm not these things. I'm not going to keep labeling myself anymore. I'm going to me. From now on, I'll try my best to go on my own instincts. To buy and do what I like, not what others want. Thats why today, I cleaned out my closet, my Invader Zim shirt...now gone. My black Vote For Pedro shirt...gone. My Table of Periodic Elements shirt...gone. Sure, they sound cool...but it's not me. I bought and wore those shirts to label myself so I'd fit in, and that's not what I want. I'm gonna give those clothes to Chesea, since I know she really likes those things. n.n And so, I'm gonna to have a confession, the true ME. The true IIA...the true TESSIE RAVEN. n.n These are some things about me, that I usually would NEVER admit.

-My favorite color isn't really black...it's grey. The middle of white and black. I like blue a lot too.
-I like slow songs, and even the beat to some hip hop songs, even though I still fover rock and techno.
-I like getting my nails done...not because I think it's pretty, but because I bite my nails...and hangnails HURT.
-No matter how much I hate my dad...I still love him.
-I love to sing and dance, even though I'm no good at it ((<--MAJOR CONFESSION))
-I'm far from the hardcore gamer.
-Half of the video games I said I've beaten, I never have beaten...this includes Kingdom Hearts. My friend beat it and I just watched.
-I hate MMORPGS just as much as I hate my social life.
-I hate the gothic people at the mall.
-I like the way I look with makeup on sometimes...even though I HATE to wear it.
-The bigger the clothes, the better.
-I'm unfamiliar to many anime series.
-Sheldon Benjamin is my favorite wrestler.
-MY last IQ test results were 111.
-I have no clue if 111 is a good IQ score for a 14 year old.
-I hate the X-Box, same goes to the X-Box 360.
-I suck at first person shooters and fighting games.
-You can school me at probably any video game there is.
-I hate my neighborhood
-I'm very proud to be an American.
-I really DO worry about my weight.
-Having an aunt that wighs less than me AND having friends that weigh less than me is EXTREMELY intimadting ((<--MAJOR CONFESSION))
-I'm not as tough than I seem.
-I'm not an optimistic person.
-I can live without chocolate.
-I'm very envious and greedy.
-I really hate in when people have a lot more gold than me. x.x
-I hate the fact that I owe Yuki 10k AND Kite 10k
-I'm dissapointed that I quit quests so easily.
-I really wish I was just like Iia.

There are still things I won't admit...but they are very personal, and I know people on Gaia that I know in real life that just don't need to know these things. @___@ And it's NOT something bad like I have sex. >< I've never done that before, and I really don't plan to soon. o.o Marriage first, bitches. <3 But still, they're about me...and I don't want to share...my opinion. ;x

My fingers hurt. @_@ Must stop typing. WHAT A CRAPPY ENDING T__________T Now people think I'm a bad person. gonk *shoots self*






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Yuki the Yume-Guardian
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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 06:13am
o___o You get all of that stuff?! A mug for 5 cents!? T____T I want a "I love Canada" mug xP Because Canadians rock. <3

Whoo for 2nd place! ^o^ Congradulations <3

Labels...Ahhhh...Don't hate me for this, but I actually like labels x_x Although, I also like the fact that I want to be different. So I call myself "Mime". What is it, you may ask? Well...

-Wear a lot of black and/or white
-Very quiet
-Has a creative mind

x) Ha. But people might think I'm goth...I'm not really into really creepy things, but some things are good. I perfer cute things ^___^ Heee. But yes. It is good to be just yourself <3 Hee.

...And ha...You owe me 10K x) *Evil laugh* xD Sorry...Had to do it.


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 06:24am
>w< Yup...all that stuff...and we didn't even hit all of the sales. xD and the clothes were all new

Thank you. n.n

Well, I respect your opinion. I actually label other people, but I hate it when other people label me. >< I'm just trying to be myself, and it's not that easy when you have people pulling you here and there trying to get you to be something else. I think I have traits of your "Mime" label, too xD

My nanny, her husband, AND a family friend all chewed me out because they though I was goth...They said ((and this is a TRUE stroy)) "What are you doing? You hve black nail polish, black bracelets, and a black shirt on!" I really liked the style, and so I said. "What? It's not like I'm gothic or anything...I just like the color black." and then one of them said. "Oh, well I don't worship the devil." I literally almost cried. I know that my family is very religious, and I'm not...but still...saying that I worshipped the devil really hurt. gonk

x.x i know. don't rub it in ;.; I'll pay you back soon enough. n.n Probably by next month. >w< You know, if I had actually succeeded in the Jacked Up Shirt quest, I wouldn't be paying you or kite back. xD



Iia
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Yuki the Yume-Guardian
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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 06:30am
TwT Sworry for rubbing it in. x_x I feel evil today D; *Hugs* :3

My friend hates being labeled. But she calls herself Goth anyway. Feh...One time, either me or some other kid really upsetted her for calling her goth, or hardcore goth. x_x I call myself an Anime freak, but you know, I don't know a lot about it xD

;.;...That's just mean. If someone said that to me, I would be crying. I can see why you would hate being labeled -.- And even then, not all goths worship the devil. Like I mentioned about my friend, she's goth, but she doesn't worship the devil or anything. x_x I'm not so religious myself x.x;


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 06:39am
That's quite ok. >w< Whether you rub it in or not, I still owe you the gold xD Though don't be surprised if you get like a sealed and 3.5k instead xD

I like anime, so I tend to call myself an anime freak too...but I don't really consider that I label...I consider labels to be like the steriotypes...you know, nerd, goth, prep, stuff like that.

Yeah, people here just judge every little thing about you. I guess it's jst because they want me to be just like them, but I don't want to be like them. I like my style, and I have the right to believe in what I want to believe in. I'm religiously unstable really...I believe some things, I don't believe others, and some things I'm just not sure about. I'll tell you this though...I don't worship the devil. .____.;;;



Iia
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Yuki the Yume-Guardian
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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 06:48am
Whoo! xD I like letters owo <3 They're fun ^o^

Ohhh...xD I never thought of labels as stereotypes, I think...But now you say that, it's true xD Like..."All goths don't like cute things and they worship the devil" and "Nerds are weak and they snort"...and "Preps are sluts" <-- ((I usually say that O-o))

Yep...I'm afraid of people judging me T__T I wanna be me. Like...I like to ramble about what goes on in a Sonic RP, and my friends either get confused, or they listen and don't have a clue xD Whoooo. Heh. I'm not sure about religion anymore ._. Heh.


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 06:53am
Yup. n.n

I say that about about preps too. x.x teh shame on meh!

xD I whine too much. >w< And I ramble a lot too >w< And judging is bad...but everybody does it. .__. Yeah...religion is...confusing nowaday. I think with all the science and facts these days, it's hard to believe a lot o f things.



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Yuki the Yume-Guardian
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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 06:57am
Shame on meh and my brother, too xD Because we say it. HA!

Fuuu. I whine a lot. I sound like a little kid when I'm around my friends xD I would be clinging onto them, hug them, and hug their arm as I walk. owo Told them that I might be bi, and I think that scared them T___T...But then again, they never liked me hugging them. x-X...Yep. Damn you, science! T____T


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:13am
xD Teh shame on us ALL! domokun

xD I never told some of my friends that I was bi. .__.;;; My close close close friends know. One was scared for a while, but not anymore...and the others were ok with it. n.n However...it's a big deal here, so I really don't tell anyone. sweatdrop They already have the lesbian rumor about me. gonk I am not a lesbian. ;.; Though I nothing against them x.x I am not one.



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Yuki the Yume-Guardian
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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:22am
xD YES!

My mom said that it wasn't a good idea to tell them. Especially when Alex told me something about not hanging out with me anymore. That sorta hurt my feelings, but we're still friends. I'm not so sure if I'm bi or not anymore -.-* Right now, I'm not in love with anyone xD Harhar.


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:27am
We just take so much pride in that, don't we? xD

o.o I'm never telling my parents. Dad would disown me, and mom would try to put me in a church conseling or something. -.- I don't love anyone irl either. n.n I don't really want to, though. n.n



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Yuki the Yume-Guardian
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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:33am
.....Yes we do ;D

Shoo...My mom didn't mind at all, because some of the people she knows are gay. And I was flipping out one day, and I let dad read this journal that I've written about how I might have been bi. I was crying hysterically, but then he told me he didn't mind. Loved me for who I was n.n No matter what. And I was so relieved T___T Sorry about your parents owo;...I would be flipping scared if I was disowned or put in conselling...o_o What does disown mean? And I don't want to get married or have kids x_X


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:39am
...we're so cool. xD

Well, disowned kinda means that he would deny that I was his kid, never be seen with me...ignore me...that stuff. I guess it's just that Mom is religious, and Christian religion states that homosexuality is wrong. Dad thinks the same way, but he also thinks that the people who are gay, lesbian, or bi are just...inferior I guess. My mom would probably accept it after a while. My grandma wouldn't mind at all. n.n I love her <3 But I don't want to tell her...in fear of her telling my parents. .__. I never thought of getting married. >w< I don't want to, but if I do, I don't think I would want kids....but you never know xD



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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:46am
...Yes. We pwn x)

TwT...I would really hate that, because I'm a person that likes to be loved a lot. I think my dad is religious, and thinks that homosexuality is wrong, but he still said he loved me TwT Feh...I think my grandma...Well, I dunno. I think she's really religious, but I'm not sure @w@...And I don't want to have kids because of all the drama T___T


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:51am
PWN the preppy sluts! >w< HA!

Yeah, I'm always nervous around my parents. -.- I actually cry at night thinking about if they would think of me differently if I told them. MY grandma is very releigious too, she goes to chuch every weekend, and on the holidays and stuff, but she follows her own beliefs too, which is great. n.n She was reading an article in the paper once about homosexuality, and she said, "Well, s**t. Love is love, let the people do what they want. God gave free will, and that's that." I hugged her >w< Even though I hug her all of the time. o.o Yeah...kids are drama. ;.; So are husbands xD



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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:55am
Yes! ^___^ *Gets out a hammer* PWN THEM GOOD! <3

I remember crying one night thinking about it. -w- I was in denail...or however you spell it. n_n;...I didn't expect a grandma to say s**t o_o...But then again, my mom is 54 and she curses a lot xD Hee <3 Yes...Kids and husbands...T___T So much.


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 08:03am
*takes out a chainsaw* twisted EHEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!

Well, I get depressed a lot, for different reasons, and sometimes for no reason at all. -w- but I cry. I'm happy a lot too sometimes. o.o My grandma curses, but it's just natural to her. My mom is 40 something xD



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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 08:08am
o___o...Chainsaw tears T___T

I sometimes cry for no reason -w-...It's really strange to me x-x And I can be liek...overly hyper ^____^ WHOO. Dad's 52...I think. I forget x____x


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 06:41pm
o.O Wha...? I can't use teh chainsaw to pwn? D:

Same here...xD Sometimes, my brother says I have split personalities. o.o I don't know if I do or not, though. .__.



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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:00pm
0.o.. All together that only costed $7.... Which is very very good.... which is only whcih is only around £4 where I live..... eek


commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 07:45pm
Yup. xD And everything was pretty new, so I got good quality stuff xD



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commentCommented on: Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 09:24pm
Hooray thrifty shopping! biggrin
D: Don't fuss too much over realizing that you were tying to impress other people. I used to be like that and I just realized that, hey, now I don't have to buy stuff I don't like anymore. biggrin
You could always be like me- Buy some boys pants from PacSun that get me stares because, dude, they're BOYS and they go to my knees, and then go spend 60 bucks on shirts from American Eagle. XD I'm not a tomboy, just insane. =D
It'll work out eventually. Confusion only lasts until you figure it out. heart


commentCommented on: Mon Jul 25, 2005 @ 04:43am
xD You make perfect sense in a confusing way. xD I get your point. Of course, I'd never spend $60 on shirts from American Eagle. xD I'm just too cheap.



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