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yesterday was amazing though...


I walked Rebecca home and finally told her what my password used to be


it was "I love you"


then she hugged me back....



and told me "I love you"


hearing her say it back was like your first breath of air after drowning in the ocean:


sweet as can be and satifiying to the limit, but it also stung, and hurt...


I don't want her to love me...


i'm not good enough for her, and i'm leaving...


how can I deal with what she will feel when I leave?


knowing that she loves me too.... it hurts when I think about the future...


Rebecca... just know that I do love you... always, and forever...


But i'm sorry for all the wrong i've done you, and the pain I might cause you...


I am truely sorry... sorry for loving you.