Mood: Aggrivated...very aggrivated, and depressed.
Currently Listening To: "My Immortal" - Evanesence
Currently Listening To: "My Immortal" - Evanesence
@___@ Oh my God. Entering the world is art is the most PAINFUL and FRUSTRATING thing ever...besides my period. x.x Ahem.
To start it off, I suck at drawing. @___@ And don't say "Practice!" ....I am, dammit! <_>
It really stinks when you like your recent drawing....then you see somebody elses art....and then everytime you look at your drawing, it looks like s**t. x.X I stink compared to you people.
I don't know what any of it means! Mediums? Programs? It's ALL very confusing and I feel I don't fit it when I don't know what people are talking about.
I'm confused on DA....I haven't finished learning how it works. x.x And it doesn't accopt .bmp files.
Now tht's all for the ART part...onto my other rants.
My brother told me to sell his sealed letters on Gaia...and I was just expected to know that he wanted to keep 2...so now he's mad because I sold them.
Nobody's hardly ever on...and most of my friends don't seem like they're friends anymore...I don't know why, but it makes me feel...used. Especially when Rei calls me Chesea. I mean, I have nothing against her, but when she drew me...she put Chesea on the painting...she called me Chesea a couple of times too....that just kind of hurts. I just feel so low. Being that I'm getting into the whole art thing, which is making me self conscience about my work...AND the fact that I feel not many people are caring. My parents ignore me...my brother beats me up everyday for no reason...it's just a lot for me right now...I need something good to happen.
I don't know...I mean...there's nothing really BIG thats keeping me down...it's all these tiny tiny that keep picking at me. I can't stand it. sad
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I see A LOT of people who draw way better than me...I sometimes feel like...unsuperior or something...And all I can use is MS Paint, while people can use Photoshop and Adobe...Or whatever the hell there is...And their drawing skills are just awesome. They say that they draw and draw for years...and they get better...Or something. I hope I will be able to do that....And I've been on DA for a few months...Maybe I can help or something. x_x I don't know a lot about it though...So yeah...
x_x...Sometimes I feel that my friends ignore me or something...Sometimes, I just think that I'm pestering them...Then I just eventually leave them alone ._.;...But I care about you. n_n; *Hugs* You've been my friend for a really long time...You gave me so much attention...and we try to help each other...and all that jazz. And I'm sorry if I'm not on so often...I get distracted easily n.n;;;
heart Hope you feel better.