I am coming back to visit this weekend and hopefully then my computer will be repaired. Right now it isn't working, which explains my absense. I am using my roomie's computer while she sleeps right now. She said I could. I will post the time and any plans I have set so you all know what I'm up to. I love you.
Temptation is an awful thing, or is it? Right now I am tempted to indulge in another person's fantasy that I am worse than I actually am. I am tempted to show that person what she or he may want so they will shut up and leave me alone. I am tired. Frankly I did care how that person saw me and still would see me. The people I love are being treated as possesions in that person's mind and their minds are nothing but a creation to be influenced my me. How much more wrong can it be!
This is the problem I have with the unicorn. She believes that I caused everyone to be the way they are, I caused the suffering that happens at that school even now. They have their own minds that develop. Sure, I probably influenced them along the way but I am not always there in their minds steering them down paths. they make their own decisions and take responsibility for their actions. True, I will always be a part of their lives because they have memory of me but I am not the only thing that influences them.
Something that I take much pride in is meeting all of them. I got to be in their worlds for even the moments of moments and each world was different. It gives me a pride to think of the happy memories with them or how they might be now. Am I happy I met them? Of course. Am I sad I left them? Not at all. They are becomong their own people and I couldn't be any more exstatic for them.
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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