God is the only thing i can hold on to...
And thats all He was and is tryin to tell me :/
is that i can't rely on people, even those closest to me, to be able to be there for me, to trust me, understand everything about my life, and to understand what it feels like to know what i'm going through...
thats too much to ask sad and i'm not saying that because it makes me angry, but i do know that i feel disapointed... and above all hurt.
But... its the only way. there is only one i can fully lean on and fall onto when i know i need the strength to get back up. God has been working great things in my life and teaching me to hold on to the glimpse of hope that He has layed in my heart...
i'll never give up on this crazy, painful, amazing, and wonderful life that God has given me smile He has helped me realize i haven't changed who i was, and i won't change who i am... but that i am becoming the amazing person that He has created me to be!
i don't want to be normal smile haha is there really such thing? razz i want to be me.
even if it hurts, i want to follow Him in what He has commanded me to do, what He has given me the desire be!
so many people say they are and desire to be themselves but sometimes are too scared to really be... i don't want to be one of those people anymore smile i don't ever want to hold back. i don't want to be scared or worried of what might happen.
what even ever does happen, i have no control over anyway razz for so long i've worried far too much, and have been too scared to take chances and finally just let go!
my prayer, from my heart... is to finally find that peace and saticfaction in my heart.
and know that no matter what i do or who i am, it is always loved and adored by the one who matters most smile the one i need and deserves my trust of my whole self!!
i thank you God... so much for all that you've done for me, given me, and for all the crap you put up with from me ^_^ no one else knows me or loves me near as much <3
i love you!! my wonderful loving father and savior biggrin
amen
L♥
 my_gidd_fiddle · Fri Sep 26, 2008 @ 11:27pm · 0 Comments |
