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Axel went off last night to look for Hanzou. I don't think he's back yet but I wish he was. I won't speak to him but I will let him back in. I will let him comfort me because there is no one else capable of such right now. I cannot hold myself together.

I am skipping two of my classes, Japanese and AAS. I went to Speech class and it was really hard to just be there. We went over our speech topics and I pissed off this one chick because she is gonna do hers on prostitution and I objected to it. The teacher is going to let me skip out class during that time. She took it personally but so did I, even talking about knowing she was going to do her topic on that make me shake. I started to shake violently in class but no one noticed.

LMAO. He really is stronger because of last night. Mr. Scribbles won the battle over sleeping with me last night and I keep thinking about torturing Eclipse. It has gotten pretty bad... I am going to see if there is a phyciatrist on campus just to talk to. I don't need my medicine yet. But I at least recognize there is a can of worms open and it needs to be monitored. I am also going to email my teachers so they don't worry so much, speech and Japanese.

I am not changing my avatar for a while, unless it is fiery. I think it represents this part of my life perfectly. I am his princess. He is my whip and wings, forever let me be collared to him.

NAH NAH NAH. I got to keep control. Damn it to hell. I can do this. ^^ All betters. Talking about it on here makes it disappear pretty well. Okay well, I'm going to take a nap and then go to English class then do laundry. Talk to y'alls later.