Every night I lie awake
lay in a moment to wait
So my mind can take me away
So I can dream of a better day
I wake up with the taste of blood in my mouth and a pillow freshly dipped in red
Everything in my head drives my blood all over and out of me and onto my bed
It's easy to think hard to the point that your brain shuts off
but most of you are happy so you can't hate enough
In my room thinking of my day and all the reasons why I need to die
I'm a loser and pathetic, I lay and cry, I know this, it aint no lie
If you can think of who you are and make those thoughts cause your nose to bleed
maybe you need to think twice of the life you lead
I never try to stop it
maybe it'll end splendid
Maybe it will kill
someday it will
No one no matter what hates themselves like I do
I tell myself all the time "If i see you I'm going to shoot you"
Thats why I watch my shadow walking down the streets
The scariest thing at night or day is this creep
I can't pull a trigger I can't work a knife
so I have to find a better way to end my life
Sitting in a pool of blood, tears, and boogers
If I were to be attacked, maybe it will be by cougars
Or myself... Nothing can harm me it seems
no matter how hard I try the only way I die is in my dreams
I'm sick of this
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