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What are you supposed to do when it hurts this bad? Keep walking and just hope things will get better?

There is no darkness anymore
Nor is there light
I just want to sleep
Kill the fun
Kill the pleasure
Each day will be a new start
Each day will have no meaning
Let the sun rise without my smile
Let my smile be empty and lifeless
A smile is only a smile with happiness
Without
Without
Day after Day after Day
I told you I would
This will be my reminder
It shall be strange to watch the blood
I have almost forgotten its stench
Three marks for naught
Three marks for my heart
Let this be a reminder to
ME
A thing that fades
A thing that withers
A thing that wishes
A thing that despite everything will always dream,
will always wish,
will always love,
will always trust,
And love shall keep away still.
Let it be a reminder
Trust
should never be given.
should never be taken.
should never
ever
have been born.
Never should there be an excuse for me.
Even this pain I shall survive.
Even this pain, I will limp onward.
For pain is only an illusion that blinds us from life.