"NO!"
There, that was it. The electrical surge I needed. The pain. The throbbing. The pain. Keep going. Farther. Deeper. Let's walk together. Hold my hand.
REWIND
"The pain is necessary. You'll probably be able to go much further you know, other galaxies, other stars. Will you come with me? I'd like to give you something very important."
Oh God. Thank you. Let it out. Just... let it out. It's so true. Jolt me again. I can't give in. Jolt me again. Don't let it happen.
"It'll be alright. You will see him again."
No, I won't.
JOLT.
"NO!"
I should stop watching at this point. I know the rest will only leave me weaker than usual. But I won't. I don't mind it so much. Today is alright. I will be surrounded by others later. Today is mostly... just me. I don't feel comfortable as the "me" I am now. I am trying to change again. This pheonix is trying to fly once more. The ashes must be spread and shaken off.
"One thought, what would it be... it would be: I am here."
