Originally Sakura Takachi was the name of a roleplay character of mine. It was my Aes Sedai name and the name of my commonly used girls in random mansion, forest, etc. roleplays. She developed such an intimacy to me that I wanted my name to be changed to hers. She is tied to Sakura, from Cardcaptor Sakura, who is my idol (still to this day). The last name I made up because it sounded Japanese but not too Japanese that I couldn't pronounce it. I would watch the credits of anime shows and be like gonk "What is that?" She represents the passion in my life and how I think it needs to be controlled and realized. It is not a fault or a good aspect necesarily. She just... is.
Sakura became my nickname because I was that person. To a point, I am still that person... yet I am not. Because I am not fully her I cannot be Sakura Takachi. Because I am not fully Chisai I cannot be Chisai Yume. DON'T CONFUSE US. We are not each other nor are we not. I am not either and yet I am both. Sakura cannot die, neither can Chisai. They are my inner voices and as such they aid me through life. They ARE NOT ME!
I can be called Sakura because that is a part of me. I can be called Chisai only by those with the authority to do so. Chisai is different from Sakura in that she is rigid and cold. Sakura is accepting and trusting from the start. Chisai is a soldier of her past but Sakura is a prisoner of her present. Am I to be a person of future?
