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Let the Others be Put to the Test as I Make it Through My Slaughter House

Sakura is in Haitus for the next two days or so. She is still here but not as active as before. Her passionate nature has led her to defeat this time, again.

I am writing in a journal for theraputic reasons. I figure no one knows me better than myself and until I can face my parents when this is a real issue, I am going to continue dealing with it myself. I am relying on my friends so I am not alone and my thoughts will not consume me. Anyway.... my point was that I prolly won't be writing as often in this journal. I dunno though. It all depends. I have very little energy here at the apartment and I mostly just write during my classes. I am doing really well in classes and only write when I can, no worries it isn't getting in the way. The journal is really good for me for once, before it was actually hindering my healing abilities because it made me fall behind in everything else.

I am hiding in the apartment. I have designated a section of the blue couch for myself and sit here. I do not go anywhere else. I try not to go in the kitchen as much as possible. When I get home from school I clean then do homework. When I feel tired I must not fall asleep, if I do it must be accidental on the couch. I am not allowed to nap. I am not allowed to be noisy. I am not allowed to be myself.

For the time being I will sit in this cage, they will never know my sacrifice.