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my dear love
you say you understand me know me but you cant cause i dont understand myself you think of me as this strong girl but that is so far from the truth i am not i break easily behind these eyes that you so love behind these eyes are all the pain the tears that i hide from the world i am insecure as hell and for that i am so sry i am not the girl you think i am you say you have issues babe you have no idea about issues i am the one with issues im like this fallen angel with a heart of gold but filled with so much hate and pain but mixed in with that is my love for you it burns bright thats the only thing i know is that you make me shine thats why i ask babe when you stare into my eyes and see the true me for the first time will you hide your eyes? will the pain be too much for you? or will you hold me tight kiss me look beyond that pain? these questions fill my mind will you love the real me the side i have hid from the world and the side i tried to even hide from myself your love means everything to me so plz forgive me if i let these tears fall from my eyes or the pain crack in my voice or if i get jealous or scream know that im not screaming at you babe when i seem like im screaming at you im screaming at myself im in this never ending battle with myself i want so badly for the pain to go away but it lays within me the hate the pain the jealousy the anger is all part of me so plz forgive me if you see that side of me my love i love you so much i am my own worst enemy that is so true but you my love are my angel breaking me from this shell i put myself in and im letting light shine through but i cant say im not scared because im terefied of this love iv never loved this much ever and now that i do i am afraid to lose it
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