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Okay...so this topics been floating somewhere for a long, LONG time now...and I just discussed it with my dad and my grandma tonight.

Other than flunking math and trying to squeeze through little kids every single effin' day to get snacks at the canteen, I don't have that many problems at school...well, accept for a few itsy-bitsy things....

1. I listen to music that girls my age gag at (yah know, the ones that don't have the words 'sex' and 'a**' and '********' and 'd**k' and all those little 'add-ons' that give music 'appeal' now. Don't get me wrong though, sometimes all I need to pick myself up is a song with a little cussing here and there.). Like one time, a friend of mine asked if she could borrow my mp3, and after that she commented on almost every single track that wasn't on the MTV top ten or airing in our local radio station. And I wanted to go like, 'That's what earplugs are for sweetie....for blocking out your rubbish comments on what your think is music.' *sticks out tongue*

2. I'm so quiet sometimes that people think I'm spying on them. Almost everyday I get comments like "Oh no, here goes that girl again...she must've heard our conversation...ummm...Hotaru...could you stop listening to us?" Err...how exactly do I do that? And why would I be interested in who's with whom and who had a cat fight in the middle of the street with whom and all those other rubbish...? Probably they think of me like that because I'm a reporter at our school and they think that I'll publish all their dirty little secrets on our paper. FYI, I don't have enough time to write about how many days you've gone sober or whatever....Sheesh...

3. I write. That alone makes me...different.

4. I don't have a boyfriend...nor do I want one...sounds like jabberwocky to hook up with someone whom you doubt you truly love. Screw love...or in other words--screw what most people think is love.

5. I don't watch boys over flowers (*Gasp!*)

Simply put, I'm a weirdo. Nope, not a nerd, or a geek..a weirdo...at least nerds have a label.

Me? I'm unique, one of a kind. Like wasabi-flavored potato chips--some people like it the first time, some don't. But once people taste it, they get hooked on the taste...the only problem is when people are stubborn and close-minded about new, undiscovered things and prefer the bland, salt-covered classic potato chip.

Yes, there might be something wrong with me...and that one day, I'll pay for being the oddball I am now. Sometimes, I just wanna fit in like everyone else my age..

someone who has bangs that go down to her eyes...

someone who's a size zero...

someone who has about a hundred text mates...

...and someone who's finally(?) found someone who they want to spend their lives forever(I don't know if I've found him, but I think I have...yes, I know what I said sounds EXTREMELY redundant, but, yeah..dunno how to say it.)

But, hell, I like myself the way I am now. So if someone has a problem with it, I won't care...because it's their fault that they can't take wasabi-flavored potato chips. *wink!*