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I'm Listening to Iris by the GooGoo Dolls, and it got me thinking. Also how so many of my friends don't really know me. My friend, Audrey, just found out I am Wicca. And she's been my best friend since 9th grade, that's 4 years now. So I'll just post everything about me. And there is a song at the end that kind of resembles how I feel.
Why am I doing this? 'Cause I want you to know who I am'
My name is Amy. I like dark colors. I like Country music, some rock, and J Pop. I don't really have a religion. I was born a Christian, went to a Mormon school, and grown up Wicca. But I am mostly Wicca, I do believe in the higher power, not saying 1, nor am I saying more then 1. I just am saying I believe in something. Angels, fairies, demons, yes I believe in these too. I can't say that I don't believe in vampires, werewolves, mystical animals and creatures of the night, but I can't say I really believe in them.
I remember a lot of things, stuff that I wish I don't remember. So if you promise me something, I remember it, always.
I like scary movies, horror movies. I like slash (yaoi) stories. I don't make a lot of friends, but the friends I do have, I want to keep, cause I feel something special from them. I can feel how someone else is feeling, that's how I make friends.
I love people, but I fight with them. I don't know why. I guess I'm afraid, or I just don't want to hurt people, so I fight with them. I fight with them, to see if they will stick around. It's a test.
I have a temper, not one that people see often, cause they don't provoke it. When I do have that temper, I'm mean. Silent treatment, glaring at them, sure, I do that stuff. I cuss, that's how you know I'm mad. I cuss a lot.
I can kill someone. I've warned my family about it. That if I ever have a blunt object and someone were to come into the yard and harrass us, I wouldn't stop swinging until someone grabbed me and took the object away.
I will hit someone, I will grab someone and yell in their face. I go through these periods, when I am so pissed off, that if I go somewhere and if someone were to even bump into me, I would grab them and just yell at them.
Other times, I feel like I crashed and burned. And I can't get up. And all my friends don't care. No one cares. During these periods, I'm sad, I feel like no one really cares. It feels like the world has turned its back on me, and no one is there to help me. No one to save me. But then I think of anime, mangas, songs, movies, making AMVs, stories, and I put all my emotions in those.
Although, you would never believe this if you saw me. I get told a lot that I look so sweet, and innocent. But don't judge a book by it's cover. But everyone sees a sweet girl, it's fine by me. They don't know that the book holds danger, love, sadness, and happy stuff. Oh well.
I am a kid sometimes, act like a 12 year old rather then an 18 year old. Other times, I act so mature. I have a soul of an older person, I have tension that only older people get.
Did you know death calls me? When someone I know dies, I wake up at 5:30am the day they die. I've had it a couple of times, and low-and-behold, someone died. I wake up for no reason. So I know when someone dies.
I have deja'vu a lot. I have dreams, then it happens. Sometimes my dreams are premonitions. I've had a couple that were exactly like my dreams.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
 1wickedmind · Mon Jan 02, 2006 @ 03:35am · 0 Comments |
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