09.01.09
There are few things in life that a girl should ever forget. Such as: a first kiss+who it was with, a first time+who it was with+where it was, and the friends who have betrayed her. Recently, the last has become the most important. LG, a friend of mine, I have recently trusted with my feelings and experiences. However, that was a mistake I will never make again. At lunch, LG began to tell everyone EVERYTHING I told him in confidence as a secret. I told him to shut up, my voice increasing with volume everytime I yelled it. It didn't change things, his word was out, the truth revealed, and everyone knew.
Why is this not the first time this has happened to me?
Why can't I just learn to never trust again?
Why can't I just learn to never trust again?
D betrayed me first (or at least most recently) last year when she told C the one thing I didn't want him to know, that I broke up with my boyfriend for him. the thought of being betrayed by my own best friend was overwhelmed me and made me cry, yet I forgave her and still trust her today (just a bit less than I did before.)
Then, it was C who told the whole drama club about me sexting with "Bob" (who was actually C, but I didn't know) even though it was a lie (the lie was that it was donbe purposely. I thought it was a joke). I fled the scene, seeking to dry my tears in a less public place. That was when I lost all hope of C ever being a good person.
Today, it was Lg, screaming every word I ever told him to the world. Bob, my boy problems, my un-virginity, ALL OF IT.
Then, it was C who told the whole drama club about me sexting with "Bob" (who was actually C, but I didn't know) even though it was a lie (the lie was that it was donbe purposely. I thought it was a joke). I fled the scene, seeking to dry my tears in a less public place. That was when I lost all hope of C ever being a good person.
Today, it was Lg, screaming every word I ever told him to the world. Bob, my boy problems, my un-virginity, ALL OF IT.
Maybe, I neeed to find myself a better group of friends.
