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YUP

that's what comes out...

I was to speak my feelings I would scream for hours.

I just wish I could be there for you.

I miss you so much, and I am trying to come back...

I SWEAR I AM!

I am so trying... I want to see you... I want to be with you...

I'm sorry that I cant be there for you.

i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, so sorry, i'm so sorry...

that's all I can ever do is appologize...

I wish I could be the guy that deserves you... I know that i'm not, but I really really do wish I was...

whether or not I deserve you, I am yours... as your boyfriend, as a friend, as anything you want me to be, when I get my car fixed, I'll be your driver...

I am trying.

I am sorry.

I am... I don't know what I am...