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I won't cry to you
I promise
I won't call out to you
I promise
I'm never going to change
But truthfully,
I'll always hate that we're like this.

First week of school eh. Busy. s**t busy. s**t s**t. The free time I do have I spend checking the threads over and over again that I am involved with. I love my new roleplay friends. I feel comfortable with them and they make me happy. Of course, I don't know them in real life so... it's okay... I mean I wish I knew someone who shared my passion in real life but at the same time I like it better that I don't know people. I think I'm becoming a bit of a control freak. XD Lol.

Okay so the guy in my first period class MWF (Human Bio) is really nice and all but he keeps dropping the vibe that he wants to be more than just "buddies" and I don't want none of that crap. We hungout after class Monday and went to coffee, legit coffee, then walked around and stuff. We didn't do anything and it was cool but he kept hinting and leaning in close like he wanted to kiss... perhaps I'm over analyzing but... it's kinda weird to me. I don't want a relationship that fast. I don't believe that love happens that fast. I believe that first you get to know someone then over maybe two weeks or so you get to know them enough to feel comfy and ask them out on a date. You date a few times, feel good then ask to be girlfriend/boyfriend. Now that is if you have a good schedule and lots of free time. If not, then it would take longer XD

I have a fairly busy schedule right now because I’m stressing out XD Haha. Yea. A lot. I have been talking to my roommates a lot, depending on them a lot more than usual. I don’t want to call my friends. The one friend I will call is Andrea. I call my brother too but he’s different. He’s starting to see me as a best friend. It’s comforting, like a sedative for me. Andrea helps too. It’s not that my other friends don’t help but… I don’t know how to explain it. I don’t want to call. I mean I wouldn’t mind if they called but… they shouldn’t get mad if I can’t pick up. I mean seriously, how many times have I called and they weren’t there XD Lawlz. But yea, s’not like I’m avoiding them... I’m just avoiding calling them myself. I don’t want to XD Haha.

OMG I may post some of my fangirling in here just because I want to keep record of it <3 Lawlz. I need to finish the OC’s tonight. I will repost the entry when it is done… DX Just haven’t had the time. I literally get out of class then head to the computer lab. I get a one hour break in the middle of the day for myself, since I am so addicted to the computers, to get a snack then go back to classes. I finish the day with dinner then volleyball and sleep. XD When I don’t have vb I watch movies and stay on the computer. I like my lifestyle. I like it a lot. I don’t give a rat’s a** if you don’t approve. XD