Mood: Not sleepy, but tired and exausted.
Currently Listening To: "Hard To Say" - The Used
Currently Listening To: "Hard To Say" - The Used
I wish I could just SLEEP forever until all of this s**t just passes over.
The atmosphere around school is just shot.
Teedy's going to the wake tonight, and I'm going tomorrow before the funeral. Then tomorrow night I'm going over to her house to keep her company.
Already I've had enough. I can't image what the feeling would be if I knew her. Just trying to be a support for everybody who did know her...it's really stressful. I feel like everybody's pain is being put on my shoulders, and it's really heavy. I've been crying on and off the past two days. Sometimes for Rachel, and others for just plain guilt for not feeling the pain everyone else feels, and for not being able to help my friends.
I just feel like crying now.
I kind of think I'm being selfish because I just want things to move on. Like I want everyone to just forget about it.
But that's not really it at all. I understand that this is a painful thing, so I don't blame ANYBODY for anything.
I'm just tired and drained.
I kinda want someone to cry on, too...but I feel like I can't because others need me more than I need them right now.
It just sucks, and the workload at school isn't helping.
I can't be as serious as everyone else, I didn't know her. But just about EVERYONE I care for does, so I feel bad.
Now I just feel stupid also because I don't have any money to buy everyone chocolate for Valentine's day.
All this depressing stuff is making me think of other depressing things. -o-
I feel like just going to a quite dark alone place and go to sleep....wait, how emo is that. D:
Blahhhhh, I need to get a life, and more friends. x_x
Oh, and if anybody can tell me WTF is wrong with these Naruto downloads, I'll love them forever. gonk I'm sick of damn corrupted play. I just want to watch the show and move on. TT-TT
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