I notice I have these moments but I try not to think about them. Mostly cause it make me feel bad but like always I can't sleep because of this hole in my chest. It really driving me nuts as it really itchy and gross...
I feel like I should quit my job and look for another one as it really getting annoying. Even with the co-worker that are driving me nut with friendship that isn't worth a damn. They just keep on fighting even with my sleepless night thinking if I'm still asleep. Like this one time this guy was talking to me and he ask something I normally would hear online.
Like an old computer that been running and been on for quite awhile. I really don't think what I'm hearing is right even I keep hearing someone calling me name when no one there. I really show ask for more meds but I think that could be the problem ... adding I'm getting sicker everyday.
Oh yeah, I notice I keep on having flashback on my childhood. Mostly on what got me started like on reading and learning sign language. I think I like it back then...
You know I have this feeling that this nightmare isn't gonna quit as my life is just another nightmare.
~Ayame
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