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I'm sorry...don't I sound selfish? Just going 'me me me' and stuff. I'm sorry...aren't I a bad person sad
Yeah...I'm bad...complaining to YOU when you don't even know it...
I'm foolish too..
Hoping that you'll see it, but you chose to ignore me...
I almost forgot what my parents looked like when they left for 4 days..but I haven't seen you for about 2 years. Yet...I can visualize you so perfectly.
Remeber when you said," I 'forgive' you, but it will leave a scar." You didn' forgive me did you? Of course you didn't...I'm not allowed to visit, you never come to visit, you never call, you don't even ask if we're doing okay...
You expect me to do all that first? You KNOW that I'm afraid...
You act all happy at times but then sometime you're all 'dark' and 'evilish.' You complain to me saying," You DON'T understand." That hurts cause you don't know what I've been going through. Ever since, we were supposably ready to 'compete; You lied to me and now that I think back...did you try to get close to me and learn my secrets? Were your 'secrets' lies? Acting all like let's share our secrets together [insert smile and giggles]
=.= It's annoying. I bet you got kind of happy inside when I confessed saying that everyone wants me to be like you. I could see your obvious face...you know you felt a little happy inside...
But anyways...if you're reading this I hope you know that I'm sorry...this is how I feel. Well half of what I feel..but I will always love you even if you dont. I will always be thinking about you...