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So, I'm extremely frustrated with myself right now. My amp isn't good enough for me at all, and I'm getting called gay because I still dont have a ******** girlfriend. That's about the biggest ******** thorns in my side that I have right now...

I almost asked Kirsten out today. I saw her pop up in my econ class and told her I wanted to ask her something after school. Through the course of the class, I realized I made a mistake, so instead of asking her out like I initially planned, I asked, "What would you think if I asked you out?" Great diversion. Now I'm going to give her ideas...

I never asked her out and I don't want to for a simple reason: we have nothing special. We hug and hang out but that's all we do. Yeah, we're friends, but not good friends. And I feel bad for getting her hopes up. So, I'll just have to do what I can: play it out and be honest...

And I honestly think I might wanna ask someone else out... I dont know though. She says she loves being single. I know a freshie, sophomore, and junior I'd ask out. I don't because I'm not in deep enough yet.

My amp is pissing me off because it has no sustain, not nearly enough distortion or tone, and it gives wayy too much feedback. I ******** hate it. I need a Spider amp. BADLY.

So, basically, I just need somewhat of a lucky break. And some money. And a good deal on craigslist. But let's face it... Nobody's gonna read this anyway. ******** unbelievable. I started writing gaia journals because I hoped I could get a point across, but now everybody's on facebook, and nobody would take me seriously if I put this s**t on FB. I guess I'll just go to bed having let this out and having still been miserable...