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I used to want to be so extraordinary,
what happened to that?
Why am I content,
even pleased,
to simply yearn to be
OK.

Even if it's only for a moment,
I want to be normal and free.
To be able to leave the past behind,
taking steps towards a bright future
would be the thing for me.
Even if I fell
I would have that moment,
that shining moment,
that I knew the real me
and took a step towards that me.

So then I ask,
how did it come to be?
I run from love
and hide from all manner of people.
I rely on myself and myself alone
the secrets bottling up till
the cellar is filled,
every nook and cranny.
So that when the bottles unstop,
there's no one to know.
There's no one to call.
There's no one at fault but me.

Is it such a shame to only want to be OK?
Can you honestly say that you feel good today?
Are there too many troubles to count?
Do you feel at all?
Hug me close.
Does it mean anything to you?
Then you won't ever see me cry.

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Lemme tell you about the storm that's brewing.
It's bubbling and stewing.
They scream and shout and pound at the walls.
They can't get out. They never will but-
they can break my heart.
I've loved them all. I don't know if you picked that up.
I could talk about them for hours if I don't stop myself.
I wouldn't want to bore you though,
cause after all, my life is annoying. Right?
I talk too much?
I am totally inconsiderate of others,
I'm over dramatic and bossy.
But they love me.

I want you to know how much they mean to me because-
you mean a lot to me too.
Wouldn't you want to share everything if that were true for you?