it finally happened, they're finally trapped in the pages. I feel disconnected from them, like they are simply characters in a story.
It makes me feel empty again. When I stare at the page, I don't know who to draw. I don't know what to draw. I think about drawing myself and hate it. I hate the idea of drawing myself. Do I want to become trapped in paper next? I think not.
I'm thinking I might just continuously create Mixtapes and store them here. Maybe one day I'll mail one but for now I think I'll just collect them, until my insecurity is defeated.
The first Mixtape's message to myself was to stop blocking myself, to open up "Just Go With It." I used a snake on the Cd cover that wrapped around the design like a number two (by pure chance)
I have no clue as to what the themes are until after they are created. It, makes me feel like my time isn't being wasted as much when I make them.
The mood is bad, I should get offline.
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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