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It kinda pisses me off. What I want to talk about next is really stupid. Really stupid.

He can't be a spirit if he's stuck around this long. Either that or he was and then he became something else. The problem is the "something else." For a while now I was wondering... what is he now to me? Is he some demon or figment of my imagination to help me cope? Then why can I imagine him when I want to and he's not always there when I need him? Why can't I always control him? Then I thought he might be a guardian or something. Don't laugh. But it does make sense in a way. Maybe it wasn't his original purpose but it feels like it's what he is now. He's like a guiding force or a mentor for me u///////u a mentor with the ways of my heart. When... well when I want to predict things he helps and when I have some troubles with friends he can be helpful. He gives approval or not. But it's freaky cause he resented Josh.... but.... he totally gave in right away now. Before all this he's always put up resistance. He ... gave in? It kinda scares me. Like, he liked Josh but was in competition with him. He both likes and approves this time, like backing off. I'm officially freaked out.

[/ sigh] Well it was a stupid passing thought and I wanted to record it. Don't put too much thought into it.

Fu Fu Fu. I am le tired.