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I'm sorry.



I keep running to the old memories of him.

We need to talk about him soon.

It's only really coming out so much because I know I should talk about it, which gets me thinking about him more.

It's mostly me just listening to his playlist and remembering things. It's not calling him out but, it's still bad. I have an addiction. It's only worse when you think about it ^^ just like caffeine or chocolate.



And it kinda sucks too cause some of these songs could fit in my playlist... but I can't use them. They belong to Axel, not you. Ugh, my heart is aching now. It's not even a battle. You win every time. It just... pisses me off because he doesn't even fight against you in my mind. It makes me think there is something going on behind my back. Like, he's got some plan or he's going to make some stupid battle when I'm not looking. I can't take not knowing. I've got to shut him out. Talking about it will make him go away.

He'll leave me alone soon enough.

He's not strong enough. He's nothing like you.

I'm glad.