Sometimes I feel pangs, of guilt and sadness, because I don't interact with my roommates. I sit in the room in front of my computer. They have come to accept it as normal behavior for me.
But, I desire and love the affection and connections with my online friends and family so much more than that of my roommates. I like my roommates, no disrespect to them, but they're aren't on the same level as my online friends.
Besides all that, [/ sigh] they like to talk about the real world stuff that I have like no interest in. Sometimes they are good but other stories trail on and on. Like one roomie just goes on and on and one. Her stories are REALLY good most times but... they tend to drag on. Another we are kind of awkward with each other, just talking in passing.
I like them. I would miss them. I just, don't... really want to be lifetime friends? I want to be friends forever with my online friends <3 I know... that's kinda sad >.> but I... I dunno I connect with them.
It's hard to explain when you want to know someone in contrast to just getting to know someone or being pushed into it. I hope you know what I mean by this... Can you pin it down or explain it better?
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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