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Well hi there......listen I'm just gonna spill my emotions right here right now. My heart is just like so flat right now. I'm being honest I am stupid I am dumb I am that loner that nobody wants to talk to. At home I still get abused, so listen I don't know what to do really. My heart has been played with so many times that i can remember any more. To say the truth, ever since me and well Za went out my life seemed kind of better I really seemed "wanted" but now what's going on ? Another friendship lost due to me ? I really love you guys on Gaia but someday I'm gonna end up killing myself to all this madness my parents have once told me that I'm worthless and is just a waste of time. I'm not gonna lie I agree with them I'd rather be up in heaven then be stuck around here yes I am crying while I'm writing this . I will end up quiting Gaia and life as I know it. I have low self esteem and I don't really like to talk about it. I'm stale I'm stupid I'm retarded I'm a loner I'm not wanted I don't belong on earth. A shout out to Za I'm really sorry about how stupid I was acting and I don't blame you for being mad at me. -mckayla.