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Ive been so miserable because I feel like I cant do anything. I keep trying to explain everything that is wrong but I'm really upset right now.

I cant drive so I have to ask my parents to take me places. So it causes me to not waste there time and gas money so I dont leave the house much. I have a drivers test coming up but I dont know if I'm ready for it.

I really want a job so I can use my money for things I want and not my parents. I dont like spending there money on things. But if I get a job I need to know how to drive.

I dont want to go to college. I am afraid that my mom will make me when there is nothing I am interested in. I will look but I dont want to take any test or register until I know there is something of intrest. And chances are Im going to need a car and possibly a job for that.

Ive been feeling so useless and like some horrible person who doesnt want to do anthing. I dont want to grow up I want to stay in my imaganation world and dreams and not live. I dont know what to do. crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying